Honestly, I feel so stressed. I'm suffering now the most painful and toughest feeling in the world, I can't hug my dearest son. In four days, I never noticed that two of my senses have gone, I just thought that the taste of the food I cooked wasn't enough but my husband told me it was so salty. The next day when I washed the clothes with my hand, I noticed that I don't even smell the powder soap that my husband bought which is really I don't like because it has a strong fragrance, but why I can't smell that? That was the time I felt nervous and start searching on Google why? Then I found out that is it COVID? Is it COVID? I don't know until I wasn't tested yet.
Until now, I'm here in the house, I just do self-quarantine. Thinking that if I go to the hospital, I could never get back in this house again, I will miss my son so much, why? We are all together in this house but I can't feed him food, can't even take him to shower, not even touching his hand I'm going crazy. I know my son felt also what I'm feeling. He missed me so much, he always touching my shoulder and I'm crying inside my heart. I said to myself I will never leave him in this house. This day is my ninth day suffering from "can not taste and can not smell". But I have a strong body, I have no other sickness like cold and cough or fever or body aching, nothing like that.
When does this thing start? First, my husband got sick, cold, cough, body pain, and got a fever. He stopped going to his job, got quarantined for 14 days, and replaced him with what he's doing every day after his work like going to the marketplace and buy some everyday needs. In two consecutive days, I spared him going outside the house. But after two days I got sick but he's doing fine at that time. I got a fever in one day, cold in two days and that's it, after three days I feel ok. Times past, days past until I discovered that I can't smell and taste. And now it's my ninth day, and thinking that this is really a virus. My family is feeling better at this time, I need your advice please, is it ok that I'm still here with them? Waiting for myself to be ok? I can't leave my son please help me. This coming October 5 is the start of homeschooling, they need me, I need to be their teacher. One more question is there a chance that I could see them (three sons) again if I go to the hospital?
Please I need advice from you guys, hoping that there are other ways to do just to heal me without taking me away from my family. I need some advice. My other biological family was in the province so nothing I can trust to take care of my sons, my husband will be back at work next week, he will be needed that.