@eommaZel 26 August 2025 more from that month

“I am Once an Active Mom” *They say mothers have the most unconditional job in the world. No day offs, no break times, no salary but endless chores and obligations. But it is one of the most fulfilling job a woman could have.* I am once an active mom, a mom who's always present from the day I gave birth to my first born son, up to my second born son too. I was there from the day they first cried, opened their eyes, until they learned to walk, to talk and until they went to their first school. I am hands on when it comes to my children just like any mothers do. Even though I am not feeling well, I don't mind it, as long as my kids were okay, as long as I can, I'll take care of them. At school I was recognized as one of the most supportive parents on both of my children during their day care days. Their teacher noticed my dedication when it comes to my children too, and it's so good to feel you're being recognized. But everything change when I caught an illness that's changed my life. I got severe pneumonia last 2023 and everything in my life changed. *(I already shared my journey about it. Here's the* *Link**)* https://read.cash/@eommaZel/a-critical-phase-of-life-i-faced-part-i-e338e44b I became weak, I can't do the common things that I used to do. Even just a simple ironing of their clothes I was forbidden by my doctor. I really miss doing the things I used to do for my kids. Even I just prepared them fried rice with sunny side up eggs, they're very happy and tell me that my cooking was yummy. Sometimes I feel guilty, I can't deny it, I am sad in my current situation. Sometimes ,I cry myself at night because I feel like I am not a good mom to them. It's so hard to feel this way, sometimes they wanted me to be at school to fetch them but I can't do it yet, and it breaks my heart to think that I can't be present for them always just like the old times. Now that I know I have heart problems too, it became even harder. But I must stay positive no matter what. I know everything is God's will. Maybe I am so reckless with my body during my younger years, and even when I became a mom, I often forgot to take care of myself too. It's indeed my fault too. I am once an active mom and I can be active again too, not now, maybe not sooner, but I will swear to myself I can do it again. I will do my best to regain and recover myself from this drought. Instead of making it as a dilemma, I will see it as an inspiration to do better especially for my health. I don't want to be swallowed by negative thoughts. I don't want to be a burden, I want to be a hands-on mom again. But to make that happen, I have to take care of myself first so I can effectively take care the people that I love too. *I wrote this blog to motivate myself again, I must stay positive and leave the stress out of my mind. Thank you for reading and staying with me until this moment. May God bless us all.* Thank you for reading! 🤍