@eommaZel 3 June 2025 edited more from that month

A Quick Life Update It's already June! and it means school is about to start again. Parents are you ready now? or I must ask myself this. ***Am I ready now?*** Several months after my treatment from severe pneumonia last year, I couldn't do my obligations for my kids especially at school. Even though I wanted to, I can't go to meetings, awardings, and even the simple fetching them from school after their classes. I couldn't do any of that because I'm still weak. I felt guilty, very guilty. But when the time I felt better, I pushed myself to do my obligations like back to being normal again. When I fetched them at school, I noticed when we were walking home, short breaths were bearable until it slowly fades, just like I almost forgot about it for awhile. However, whenever the sun is scorching hot, we took a tricycle ride because too much heat isn't good for me and my kids. At home, I still couldn't do heavy works because of my condition. I sometimes do the laundry, just about 10 to 12 pcs of clothes only. Since we are using hand pump water, it's hard for me to pump, it causes me palpitations if I do it prolonged. Several months more, when I was feeling okay already, I started to attend meetings this year, my co-parents who knew me before couldn't help but noticed my physical changes, even the teacher too. But it's fine, I have to accept their opinions and worries. But then... And I am proud that I attended both my kids' awarding and moving up ceremony last April. ☺️

Though I honestly lose my confidence because of many physical changes I am facing presently, it's fine, I am just embracing it slowly, at least I can do now the things that I have to do for my kids at home, and especially at school. I know my simple presence holds a huge importance to them. And now, as the new school year is about to start, I am conditioning myself, because I know it won't be easy. Whenever I go out, I always have my blazer on or wearing a long sleeve, and I use eyeglasses too to protect my eyes, whether the weather is hot or cold. I know sometimes most eyes are on me, but what could I do? I need to protect my skin because it became sensitive to weather changes. Also, my eyes became teary these days, maybe due to extreme heat. Presently, my second born son will be now in Grade 1 and my eldest is in Grade 3. Both of them will be at school the whole day, except lunchtime. Since their school is just a few meters away from home, I am not giving them packed lunch instead they will be having their lunch at home so I still could check on them especially their appetite. I know my strength and things I can do now are limited but I wanted everything to be good, especially for my kids. Though, I am not yet complete with their school supplies, little by little, I am confident to acquire them before the classes start on 16. (Manifesting 🤞🏻) And me, I am fine, not fully healthy, but I know I am better than last year.I am just continuing to eat foods that are beneficial for me and my health and of course some supplements. *(Special thanks to one of the kindest person who selflessly gave me gift/s the last time.Not to mention, I know you know who you are. Thank you again. ☺️)* And my family (my uncle and aunt etc.) I know they're fine too. As long as they could see me doing well, their worries aren't coming back too. I don't want to worry them anymore, but whenever I could be financially able again, I promise to reciprocate their kindness to me, slowly, but I will. That's it for now, I honestly feel better whenever I am sharing here my blogs, I am just happy that I could write again just like the old times.****Read . cash****became my virtual diary and until now, it helps me to overcome my stress and anxiety. I know with every journey that I've been through and will go through, God is always with me. He is there to guide me and I know He will never let me down. ☺️ That's for now, Thanks for reading! ❤️ @eommaZel