[#144] Date: 20th October, 2021
Many negative things are happening over here. My uncle, who lives just a few streets away from my house, fell down and there's just one issue after another following that accident. He's my mom's older brother and in his early 80s already. Although he has his wife and son with him at home to take care of him, the wife, that's my aunt, keeps calling up my mom to discuss medical care and stuff. They have another son who lives in another section of town, but he's the type who couldn't care less about his elderly parents, sad to say.
From my observation, when an elderly person falls down, that's the start of his declining health. I would say, that's the last leg of his life on earth or the final lap in this race. He knows it, we all know it.
It depresses me to see those in my life just drop away from the face of the earth, and somehow, it is happening more often over the past two years. Surely death is part and parcel of life but it is still painful even though he is not close to me in person, but in relation, he's in a high position.
The Chinese have a saying that in the sky, there is the God of Thunder, and on Earth, there is this uncle. So, you can imagine how important this position is in the family hierarchy.
Coincidentally, a couple of nights ago, I dreamt of my late maternal grandfather, the father of this uncle and my mom. He passed away more than 20 years ago, and I was never close to him, so I don't know why he came to my dream. I am someone who dreams often, and no, it's not due to heatiness. Unfortunately, some of my dreams can be rather dark, or of the other side of the realm. Sometimes, I have messages passed through me. It's weird but I have to ensure that their wishes are fulfilled.
My dogs who had died also visited me before in my dreams, happy with waggy tails, probably to let me know that they are all right. It was very reassuring.
This time, there was no message from my granddad. I just dreamt of him, and his face was vivid in the dream. Just recently, I was talking to a friend about dreams and whether we do see the real face of that person in our dream or if it is just blurred but we know that this dream person is that person in our real life. I thought that I had blurry faces in my dream, but not this time. It was sharp and clear.
And we also talked about my late granddad. I even mentioned how I was not close to him because his speaking style was difficult for me to comprehend, so we hardly communicated. I was just present at family gatherings or wherever I was required to, as a granddaughter. Did he appear in my dream because talking about him left him in my subconsciousness or is there another reason?
I'm writing all of these down to check back later to see how long more the inevitable will happen and if there is any link between that event to this dream. It's not something that I wish to happen or look forward to because the impact will be great on my mother, but then this is life, we just get recycled. It's like we all have an expiry date, but some last longer on earth than others. And this is my closing thought.
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