@chikspere13 6 November 2021 more from that month

I LOVE YOU NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE DIFFERENT Just woke up..I slept so well last night. Im so exhausted yesterday that after dinner I don't even know if I close the window of my room. After my morning walk yesterday..I clean the garden then I have my tutor for until 11..after that I napped about one hour woke up and have my bath and lunch and resume tutorial from 1pm up to 6pm..I cooked dinner since it is my sched to cook and after that I slept in. I'm so busy yesterday but..why can't I forget someone? Why is he so torturing? How could he possess my heart and my brain just like this..? It's been months..my feelings never change..it grows stronger and stronger each day ..I don't know how to forget you..you are my big karma. Everytime I woke up..I saw you..so clear in my mind..I know it's fantasy because you will never ever be true ..yeah it's true..continent is a big gap..status too. But I know you belong in those people whom I truly love..just let me love you.. Don't push me away..just let me love you in my mind..in my fantasy.. knowing your alive and existing makes me feel at peace and I'm happy God let me know you...I like you not because you are different..I like you because...you make me feel to love in the most weird way. .the first time I felt and forever I will remember..I guess this is true love...loving someone you know is impossible..this is true love ..loving someone and thinking that he is a part of your everyday life...and just let me do this..loving you in my mind where I put my heart is..my heart is in my brain...you exists there both..and I'm happy I know you..no regrets..I accept the pain..I love you very much.. Richard..I hope you know that..why I am acting like this ...so jealous...I'm so bad.. Goodmorning I'm up lol! To forget Richard for the meantime I'll make myself busy again today.. Happy Sunday! #NoiseCash