@calvy28 15 April 2021 more from that month

Sometimes I want to speak out my ill will to my family but I don't want to be like a churlish child. They compare me to my sisters, brothers, cousins and those people who have a big achievements in life. I want to tell them that this is me, I do my best to make them proud of me but it won't. When I'm sick, they thought that I'm just being obsequious. I feel like I'm just an obstructure to them, they are narrow-minded and noisome. They threw me the words that makes me offend, it was a nocent words. I want to throw to their face this odium inside my heart but I can't, because they're my family and I love them.