@calvy28 19 March 2021 more from that month

To the friend I was told not be jealous of; You are lucky enough to know his secrets before I do and even too precious that he would still lay his head on your shoulder even I was in your front - yes, you're just friends. I confronted him for God knows how many times, asking if you're just friends and he would throw hurtful words telling me that I'm being too paranoid because yes, you're just friends. I always slip a question between our conversations when you join our dates on how close you both are and you'll just met each other's gazes and laugh; I wonder who was the third wheel - I guess I was. I was told that I should respect the closeness you have with him because you're a friend before he met me, that I am the one he love but he cannot get rid of you. Yes, you are just friends but I am not blind not to see the hidden gestures that means romance in every touch you gave to each other, to every memories you shared to me while laughing, it made me feel so uneasy listening to the old stories on how you met and how you enjoy each moments of your friendship. It made me jealous that instead of making new memories with me, he'll remember you in everything we do; making me do things he said you love to do and ordering foods from the menu that he said you love so I should try. I was the one there with him but I was always hidden behind the shadow of that friendship he has with you that he said I should not take the wrong way. To the friend he said I shouldn't be jealous of; you're lucky enough because in the end he chose you. I was there but he love you. - L // a repost photo from pinterest