@buknoytanad 15 November 2021 more from that month

I am a loner, look around me. There's nobody around me. Nobody likes me man, It is what it is. Sometimes in life people are not gonna be around you to motivate you. They're not be around you to push you, to celebrate you, to applause you. You got to do it your own. That's what I'm doing right now. - from a basketball player don't know his name but he wears a bucks shirt. Saying this with a big smile but teary eyed... I feel him... most of the time i feel this.. hahahaha.. others may see this as a negative.. it doesn't mean you don't have friends or love ones... it just means you have to rely on yourself...you should not depend on dependencies, or validation from others... you need to work on you... if someone is there to motivate your or push you or enjoy success with you.. its a bonus you should cherish and acknowledge... our tough times makes us learn who will be there.. those person that care even you have nothing and struggling, if they will always be there... I sometimes show the side that I am a victim, or who knows nothing, or who has lots of negativity and problems.. and you will see you will notice you and give you attention truly and not take of advantage so they can be on top of you.... and sometimes I show the opposite and see who will push you away, discourage you or lets say got jealous of you... hahahaha.. purging.. as they say... this is no competition.. so let us be true... and help push others genuinely. now listen to this.. you will love this... RISE by Calum Scott... you gonna see my rise... so lets all rise this monday...