@bheng620 14 August 2021 more from that month

7th day on being on force leave again, wondering now, where and what did i go wrong and do wrong to deserved or have this heartache and pain, was it 'coz i don't show my feelings and thoughts, got no remorse towards others, am i a cold blooded person, am i bad? Now, dunno what to think anymore, questioning myself why i'm experiencing like this, is this what i need to have or experienced just 'coz of the "stupid or crazy stuff that i did" , lol, maybe it's right after all, dunno how to love or give love back, lol, oh, why so many question and the answers are just few, the weather here are cloudy, parang nakikisama sa akin 'coz inside my mind or head and feelings, it's so dark and cloudy, hoping that soon, it will be sunny, clear and bright and would be having the so called silver lining, that everything's going to be alright just like before