My Guy Best Friend

Most of my playmates when I was a kid are boys, so all the games that I mostly played are men's game. Even the way I wear my clothes and talk is a bit masculine (masculine cockroach 😂). Even in school, I always bonding to my male classmates and talk about wrestling 😂, because most of my female classmates always talk about "Mara Clara" - famous and longest telenovela in Philippine history just because they can't found the uncle's diary 🤦😂. But I changed when I became 2nd year high school, I became finesss and trying to be more feminine because of my crush 🙈😂. And because I'm already a teenager and I know I'm not ugly according to me 😂, I put a bit wall when it comes being friend to a guy. Until my teacher rearrange sit on her subject and a handsome guy sit 2 chairs apart from me...

This guy have a beautiful eyes - long lashes , chinito and have dark brown eyes, and oh men🙈, you can't see his eyes when he started to smile. He has a pearly white teeth and a bit pinkish lips even he's a moreno (tanned)🤭. Am I attracted to him? Of course, attraction at first sight, but my interest lost right away when I saw him flirting to others after a few minutes he trying to be cute infront of me 😂. But after a few days interacting with him,I found out that he's smart, it's just he's not interested in studying, he loves dancing and he's really a great dancer, he's great playing a guitar too while singing. Yeah, a complete package guy - tall, dark, handsome, smart and talented - but flirt 🙄😂.

Because we're classmates and his treatment getting change bit by bit - from being flirty to friendly, me I was like , I want him to be my best friend 🙈😂. So that's what I did, I exert an effort to be his best friend and I get it 😁. Even though that it's a force boy and girl best friend relationship, I see an effort from him and vise versa. He always partnering me on Physical Education subject , he try his best to accommodate all my friends even he hates one of the guy on my circle of friends, he always treat me during recess,he listen to my tantrums, he always cheer me up, he always protect me every time there chaos inside the classroom and my favorite is, he always introduce me as his best friend then - she's pretty right? 😂😂😂.

Because of his looks and talents, he have a few admirers that jealous of me and can't believe that we're best friend. Duh 🙄, he courting my friend and I have a huge crush to Michael ( maybe I'll introduce him to my future article). I just ignore them but laughing inside - " mamatay kayo sa inggit" with devil 😈 laugh. But when it comes to his friends, co dancer specifically - they never questioned our friendship or giving any malice, because one of them is interested on me. Even my best friend knows that it caught my interest ,he never allowed it because that is on relationship and he knows how danger his girlfriend is.

Yes we have ups and downs, we even had an arguments but he always make a first move for reconciliation. I remember when he gave me a letter saying sorry, the first paragraph was - … "I saw an old friend of ours today
She asked about you, I didn't quite know what to say.. Heard you've been making the rounds 'round here.. While I've been trying to make tears disappear".. Familiar? Yeah it's a song lyric of "almost over you" 🤦😂. I just found out that when one of my childhood friend read the letter 😂. I thought our friendship will last for life time, but it didn't happen..

When we reach 3rd year high school, I was really happy because we're still classmates, he even prepare a wooden desk for me and place the arm chair on the left side because I am a left handed 😂. After a few months, my friend rejected him and he suddenly change. He even talk to me and want some alone time and he's being cold. I gave him space because I know that he's broken hearted and the reason is my friend.

But what I didn't understand that time when I someone made a rude action with me, he just laughed and said that's ok.

It wasn't ok because someone sneak on my shirt and saw my bra, I even cried to him while detailing the whole story but he just said that's ok. I don't know how to react that time, all I have to do is just to leave him from where he sitting that time and control my emotions. I'm the type of person who hide my feelings and that's what I did that time because I don't like argument with a friend, but that's the time that we started a distancing to each other.

Because he was a playboy before and some girls have a thingy to him, he entertain/courting one of his admirer, and the funny things is, we have a similar name, I mean it started in Angel 😂. Of course, they become boyfriend and girlfriend and her first request was to avoid me because it's not normal to them before the boy and girl best friend relationship plus even he already tell who's my crush that time. Plus, I am a friend to his previous heartbreak. Even it's painful to me, I distanced myself and giveaway to his new lovelife.

We act like we're not classmates and I have to act like he's not existing anymore. I don't know what's on his mind or what he felt , but it was painful to me. But before the school year ended, we had a JS prom that held in diamond hotel and he asked for the last dance.

We became more strangers to each other when we're in 4th year high school. He got alot of problems on his girlfriend because they almost live in one roof which is cause a chaos on their families. While me, busy on other things even on my own lovelife 😂, actually it's just a crush Life. We just smile to each other , but when his girlfriend is not around, hell ask how I am. I just smile and say I'm ok. When we graduate in high school, I never had a chance to talk to him again , but the good thing is, he marry his angel.

Am I mad at him? No, I'm happy when I found out that he has a big family but I didn't accept the fb request from his wife. I'm not bitter, I'm just being careful and besides, my friendship to him is already end. The last time I saw him was a year before the pandemic. My friend told me that he was just staring before he greet me hi.. if we're still Best friend, for sure, I'm the coolest tita of his kids.