October 12, 2022
I felt so tired with life, charoowt! But that's true. Sometimes, I don't really know what's happening already with my life. Sometimes, I don't know which direction should I stepped on. Sometimes I felt so lost but I meed to move forward and stay strong.
I'm going to start my sub-teaching next week. My partner brought the requirements yesterday here in our house. I need to undergo a medical examination which means I need to have money for it. Now, I am turn between where to undergo a medical exam, if in Tacloban or Sogod. If I go to Tacloban, I can get the result within that day but it was far and the fare is pricey. And if I go to Sogod, I will wait 5 days for the result, and still the price of the fare is pricey but not same as to Tacloban. So, I choose Sogod. But! I don't have money at this moment. Actually, today supposedly is my plan to go to Sogod but I need to find money. My partner don't have money because he gave his father last day for hia sister's allowance and for their entrams contribution, in short he have nothing. So, today, I was busy looking for a money. I tried to borrow to my cousins and friends but they don't have also. That's why, I asked help with other's even if where not that close, and I am thankful because they lend me their help. I just need to grind to the highest level to pay them with my debt. As long as I can have the medical, problem solved.
Now, I need someone to look for my son for a days since I'll go to the hospital/clinic for the medical. I asked someone but seems she's busy coz she didn't even seen my message. I am thinking if I'll bring my son to my parents but I can't because mom is busy and I know it will be hard for her because she have other grand children to take care of. And also, I will miss my son for sure. Because if I'll being my son there until I start my substitute teaching until done, I will badly missed him coz I won't able to see him in a day. That will be a torture for me and will not help me focus my teaching. So, my partner looked for someone, I just hope that he'll find someone to take care of our son while we're at work. Hoping that tomorrow, there will be someone who'll look for my son also while I'll go to Sogod because it will be hard for me if I'll bring him along with me.
I am going to teach a Mapeh subject. So far from my major which is Math. I just hope and pray that I will able to deliver the lesson well. I just grabbed the opportunity because my God, "gutom na". I need to work because it's so crisis and difficult situation for me and my partner already. I also want to be known in this school so that if there's an item, I am hoping they'll hire me, charooowt.
Ok sige, that's all for today. Just ranting and expressing my kind of day na super draining. Problema sa perw, Diyos ko. Baboshiiiii!