I was torn this morning. Torn to feel happy and sad. I never thought that this day would turn out like this. It was early morning yet I had to deal with this emotions. Am I that bad? Am I that sensitive? Do I have to mind? Or just relax and don't mind at all?
I already share here that I won 1BSV last few days in a game or should I say a giveaway and fortunately won there. I never thought that I will able to earn such amount with my hard work. For me it was a hard work. Doing noise.cash, read.cash and twetch everyday is a hardwork for me. Hard work because I am doing almost my time to this platforms just to earn money for my family.
Today, I joined a giveaways. The sponsor will give $10 to a user and the one who will receive that $10 will also share the $5 to other users. So it will be 50-50. But then, someone replied to my comment and said that I am the one who won the 1BSV before. I got what her point with that comment. I told her that, "Yes, I am the one who won the first prize on cityonchain. Am I not allowed to join another Giveaways because I already won?" And her reply says "That's it, so why not you do your own Giveaways.?" I know she's mocking at me. I saw her profile and we're both Filipino. She don't knew that I already gave to my friends and to those who in need when I already won that price. It's just that I didn't posted it in twetch or in any platform I joined. And then she told me that "So you mean, the one who gave you 1BSV bragged about it? I don't think so." She didn't get what I meant. I didn't want to post on twetch that I shared the blessings I received. As long as I helped, that's enough for me, I don't need to tell everyone what I did. She dragged the host on our conversation there. My husband told me not to be affected and stop replying the girl. So, I did.
What I want to say is that Games/Giveaways is different from Giving/Sharing to others. Games need to be posted or to tell everyone so that the users who joined will know who's the winner. While for me, sharing your blessing doesn't need to be posted or to be told to others just because you gave.
I was hurt about what she's implying to because I am not dumb. It just that, how can someone say that to others without thinking that she/he might hurt a person.
I am joining platforms and doing my best to earn because I want to earn for my family. I need to save money for us. I think it's not bad to save for our own, right? All I want is to enjoy and earn but why do other people do such thing to others. And the worst is, where in the same country. Why not support others and be happy of what other people had achieved. It wasn't free at all because I put effort on joining games. I am not stepping others reputation while doing my thing.
Well, it's really true that you can't please everyone. I already experienced now, how and what's the feeling when someone mock at you because of the things you did. Well, I think it's their happiness though and I can't do something about it.
I will still continue what I am doing. Because my family needs me. I will not waste my energy to those who neither helped me for a single cent nor for emotional aspect. I still have people who believed in me. One person down graded me is not a big deal since there are lots of people who still there for me.
I am human, it's natural to feel pain and disappointment. Time will heal this feeling and after all, I don't know her. So why bother, right?
I am here to earn. I don't need to explain my side. I know myself more than anybody else.
Sorry, I just want to share here what I feel. I am praying that nobody will encounter other people with what I had experienced today.
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