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Looking back to the days when I was a kid. What am I before?
Another day passed and here I am, still doing the duty of a mom 24/7 and I felt like, woaahhh exhausted as always. I felt like everyday, I am always drained from doing things but I don't have the right to complain.
This afternoon, my friend went here in the house around 4pm together with her husband and baby girl which is my partner's cousin. We talked about parenthood and all until we came up talking about our childhood as we compare children in this generation and before. As they went home, I thought of myself before of what I am. Of what kind of child am I or did I really enjoyed my childhood days?
As of thinking about it, I came up of thinking mories that made me smile and sometimes laugh. I also remembered that mareng @ExpertWritter tagged me in a challenge that talks about being a kid and of what they have done as a kid. So, it's a good timing for me to write about it.
Here are the things I have remembered when I was a kid:
I remember how I cried before especially when someone will bullied me for being small. I easily cried when someone pushed me and seen my knee having a lump. Even my cousins were bullying me for being so tiny as they don't like to let me play with them. My mother's cousins also will make fun of me. Mahilig sila mambuska, that made me cry hard and run to the room. The reason why I don't like to face them when they visit our home.
I easily get in tear when I am afraid of something like spiders and being startled by someone. I still remember, we're watching a horror movie and when we went home, they all run fast and I was at the back. The house which have only tv was away from home that we need to walk about 10 minutes.
It was the reason that I chose to be alone and to stay at home. And it made me more comfortable. Coz I don't need to mingle with them for me to be accepted. Everytime I heard my cousins cried for playing things, I will say 'buti nga, kasi lakwatsero!' , I know it's bad but I can't blame my little self as they're bullying me before. And it was the reason why I am introvert. I prefer to be alone and just read books.
I was a consistent honor as I want to make my parents proud. And I want to show my Aunts that despite of being poor, it doesn't hindrance my dream to study. I showed them that even if my parents were having the hard time in sending us to school, I will able to study and make them proud.
The whole year in elementary, I was always compared by our valedictorian. I am not competing with her as I know what is my capacity in school. As long as I am making my parents proud that all matters. And, I don't like to be the first honor because if I get that place, I will gave 1 chicken and two liters of softdrinks which I don't like to do because my parents will look for money to buy those. So, I am contented to be a second honor as I only need to give one liter of softdrink and a bread.
I know, in that age I should not think that way like a mature one but I can't stop myself of thinking about my parents to have a problem on how to buy those things just for me during recognition.
As a kid, the things that will make us happy during our generation was to have a new set of clothes and complete school supplies as school year starts. But in my case and my siblings, we didn't able to wear new uniform and to have complete school supplies.
We didn't have new school uniform and even new shoes. Our uniform was given by my parent's friends who have children also. And for the shoes, we didn't have new too. We just go to school using our slippers. Do you know, cheetah slippers? Those slippers have color red, green, blue and yellow? Yes, those slippers only. But still, we're happy to have those especially if it's new.
Yes, I admit, sometimes I am jealous when my classmates have new clothes and shoes. There bags color pink while mine was an old big black bag that looks like a bag for selling medicine. 'Para daw ako nagbebenta ng mga herbal gaya ng gamot sa tiyan'. Yes, I always endure those hurtful words. Haha. And it's the reason why I promised myself that I will finish my studies and to have a regular work so that I can have things I liked.
My school supplies were not complete. My mom always says sorry as our notebooks were not complete. And she will just promise that she will buy notebooks the next month or so. But then, despite those, I am an organized one in terms of writing my notes in my notebook. Haha. And I like writing notes during our class even until college.
I and my siblings never experienced to have our own toys that our parents bought for us. We understand as we know that life was so hard. I still remember that I had my first stuff toy from CFC (Couples for Christ) during their Christmas party which my parents was a member. Every December, I and my siblings will be excited about it coz we will have the chance to have new toys.
We love to play bahay bahayan which we can cook something like leaves. We even make oil like from the leaves of gumamela. We cooked leaves using a can. I still remember that we have fights with our cousin because of the fire we're making for cooking leaves haha. We always done that bahay bahayan in bermuda area where mahogany trees where standing. And our houses where made from coconut leaves. I still remember that we were reprimanded because we almost had a fire as the coconut tree was burned from our cooking tools charooot and we're playing near the electricity wires.
Although, we don't have toys that other children have, we still able to enjoy our childhood as we can play simple games that our parents don't need to buy.
One of the toys I've been wanting to have before is the breakgame but then my parents can't afford to buy it. So, I am just contented looking at my classmates playing those. Sometimes, they will let me borrow but I am afraid to hold it longer coz I am afraid I might destroy it. My father always telling me not to borrow other people's things coz I might broke it and they don't have money to replace it. That attitude was still in me until now. I don't like to borrow other people's things coz I am afraid I might broke it. Or if I will borrow for important matter, I will make sure that I will take good care of it.
I still have lots of memories to write, I think I nee to write it in another article as I don't have the energy to fight my drowsiness.
Those things that I didn't have when I was a child was being answered and able to get it now that I am already an adult. Before, I don't have bags and new clothes, now I able to buy my own and my son. I able to buy things that I didn't have before. I am collecting shoes now and some of it are not used yet. I have bags though cheap ones but still happy to have some. I able to buy toys for my son.
What am I before? I am contented of what I have. Or maybe not but I understand the situation. I never tried my parents to push to their limits just to have those. I understand them that they cannot afford those that's why I always say it's okay and someday, everything will be answered and that I can have those in time.
And thes days, I thanks God that I able to achieve those. I am not a materialistic one but I love buying things for my loveones. I am happy to see them happy of things they don't have before. And that matter most for me.
Tomorrow, I will write another set of memories of being a kid. I will share to you how we struggle with my family and how we overcomes it. Thanks for reading.
Note*: I don't have photos coz I we don't have kodak or phone before that will give me the picture to be shared to you.