Have you experienced to dream someone or something because you were so eager to reach your goals in life? These things happened to years ago but last night happened again to me. And this time, I felt ashamed after yet it gives me hope also even I know it's so impossible.
I already shared to you that we went to my parents house to have a vacation with for a week. So that I can have rest in taking care of my son because I felt sick. True that I got time to rest in my parents house because my Mother and siblings were there to take care of my son while I am having a rest time. Today we're now in our house after a travel of three hours. As much as I want to stay in my parents house, we can't cause the baranggay officials there announced again to have a General Community Quarantine. Afraid to be lockdown there, I told my partner to get us there and went home. So, back to being busy again in taking care of my son alone.
Why did I dreamt of Sir Marc De Mesel ? I and my father talked last night. It was about my parents house. The house where I grew up and mold as a person. Our home. When we arrived there, I saw our house still not complete and so open. Open in the sense that it was so light cause the sunlight can get inside to the house especially in the kitchen. Even the drops of the rain gets inside. You can imagine our house so open. The room where my child was sleeping is so open too, it's because our roof was high due to the lack of hollow blocks for the upper part of the house. Our kitchen almost give up it's floor and the foundation because its already old. Our house was built in the hill. So, those house below the hill will see our house so open and yeah ugly. Especially that our house was built near the church which below to our house. Our house was made of hollow blocks and amakan (bamboo tree) and it's already old. My dream why I want to finish my studies before is to have a permanent job and save money for our house renovation and my parents needs. Yet, when I graduated at college, I thought everything will be smooth and I can reach my dream that instant. I was wrong, because until now I don't have work and one of the reason is due to pandemic which I sometimes think was not true. It really gives hassle to everyone especially to us, poor. I am just glad that I found nouse.cash and read.cash cause despite having no work, I still able to earn. This platform doesn't need degree to earn. In fact many students here are working themselves to earn for their studies. Since the day I am earning in this site, it helps me a lot and when I am earning more than 10$ here for everyone article, I dreamed of myself buying materials for our house renovation. So, little by little, I am saving some for it. Since, BCH now is in low price, I am able to earn more of it and I am taking this opportunity. And, I will wait for it to pump high so that I can withdraw some for the materials of our house. When I am talking to my father, I can see hope in his eyes. I told him about read.cash and he can't believe that there's this kind of platform that will give everyone the freedom in financial aspect. I showed him mt wallet and he can't believe it. And he was amazed.
I told him about Sir Marc De Mesel , as a person who helped a lot in this platform. He can't also believe that there is a person like Sir Marc. Cause nowadays, no person would give 1000$ or more to everyone, but then I showed him Sir Marc. I told my father that I am hoping Sir Marc will notice my writings though I know it's impossible. But I told my father that even if Sir Marc will not notice me, I am still optimistic that I will able to save money for the renovation of our house. Because it's my dream for my parents. My dream since I was a Grade 6 students who aimed for good future for my parents. And I will not stop motivating myself to reach that goal for my parents. I am not a perfect daughter but I want a perfect life for them. I can endure all the hardships in life for them cause I know it's worth it.
After the talk with my father, I look around again to our house. It was so cold because it's already evening. I can feel the wind passing by inside our house cause it's open. I told myself, this year will not end and I will able to renovate our house before the year 2022. I promised it to myself. I am positive that BCH will pump this year and it will help me to my dreams through my writings and interaction with other users.
This morning, I woke up when my son cried. When I held him in my arms and feed him, I grabbed my phone and look to my read.cash account. I looked at the notification, and looked for the upvote. And it hits me, it was a dream. A dream that Sir Marc De Mesel upvoted one of my articles. I smiled and felt shamed of myself. I should not think of someone to help me for my dreams. I should be the one who will work for it and not just rely on someone. I am just glad that I am always rewarded, my articles were always rewarded and that matters most. It's a big help to me and I am contented everyday that my writings were always visited. I should be contented with it. I am still hoping for Sir to notice my works but I know it's impossible. So, I will continue reaching my goal through writing my thoughts, experiences, goals and feelings here in read.cash.
Thank you always for reading my dramas in life. Hihihi.
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