Dealing with body pain.

Article 176

September 18, 2022

To be a mom is to accept changes in your body after pregnancy. There are lots of changes that you seems don't understand sometimes.

As for me, my mood swings is getting worst and my temper also. My temper is one that I am dealing so much everyday and that I need to focus on things and think positive thoughts in order not to be dragged on being sulky. But then, having an active and energized son who have no time for relaxation and wants to play, anytime you can't stop yourself but burst. And I can say that I am still on shock on handling situation the reason I ended up crying alone. You know, it's hard to stay at home all day long with a toddler without someone you can asked for substitution. The reason I always got drained and no energy. Even my brain won't work because I'm so tired thinking what to do with the households while taking care of my son that even just to pee is so much impossible to do. But yeah that's life, "nganong ni enter?"

So, I've been experiencing 'binat' for a month already. Having so much headache and dizziness is kind of hard to deal with. I tried water therapy and it's not that easy to just let it gone. So, I don't have any choice but take some medicine to ease the pain. And this past two days, I can't breath normally as I've felt pain in my chest and my back. It's like something is blocking me on breathing. Especially at night juts like now, I'm having a hard time to breath and any position in bed, I've already done just to have comfort but no avail. I told my partner to spank my shoulder or massage because I can't breath. He then get some water and told me to have a check up but I told him no need. I don't want go to hospital just because of this.

Maybe, I just need some massage for this body pain and hard breathing. Maybe my "pilay" is being triggered and need some massage that's why my partner will contact the lady who did massage for me last year. It cost 300 for an hour of massage. It's pricey for me but I don't have a choice because i want to get rid of this back pain and in my chest.

So now, here I am lying in bed beside my son. I was planning to sleep already because I have headache again but then this hard breathing won't stop and I can't find comfort while lying in bed. And here I am, decided to just write here in read. Anyway, that's all for today guys. I need to make myself sleep no matter what because my eyes started to sting and my head like it will explode out of pain.

Have a nice day everyone and good night.