Am I still okay?

November 22, 2022

It's been 5 days that I feel unwell. I mean, I had fever last week and it came day by day until now. My headache is geting worst that sometimes I like to bump my head on the wall to ease the pain. I also intake medicine for a while now to help ease the pain. I know I am over fatigue and restless since day 1 of my job as a sub-teacher. It was like I was being shocked by the environment since I didn't work in the field for almost 3 years. Maybe my body was still in adjustment oeriod especially that the teacher I have subbed told me to give grades to her students like for sections. And knowing Mapeh, you need to give 4 grades in this subject for Music, Arts, P.e, and Health. Now, my problem is, I only able to comupute only one section which was the advisory since I need to know who were the honor students coz it's the quarterly performance yesterday. I didn't able to finish working on grades coz aside from that I have three preparations everyday and 6 class also which made me only have 1 hour of vacancy in a day. What I am having a hard time was that the 1 hour vacant won't be enough for me to prepare what are needed to prepare especially for the lessons that I need to discuss to the studnets aside from checking and recording outputs. In short, I need to stay in school upto 6 to 7 pm in the evening or else I need to stay awale until dawn. I have no enough sleep to be honest which maybe the reason I have headache. I hope I can make it through with this set up soon.

Fr now, here I am writing and typing the PowerPoint presentation, I was done with the grade 8 and 10 but I don't have yet the grade 7 since I am having a hard time with downloading videos. The signal here is not fast which made the internet so slow. My load also will not be enough since the unlidata in my sim card was gone which I didn't knew why. I need to have load for me to be able to download videos and photos that I can attach to my PowerPoint presentation. This is the main adjustment for me since I'm a Mathematics teacher and now handling Mapeh. Unlike mathematics, I don't usually need internet in making PowerPoint or downloading videos. Why? Because I can discuss the lesson and solve problem solving without me scrolling down on the internet as long as I knew the steps and formula of the said problem which always happens that written in the module. Unlike with Mapeh, even if there's a photo in the module, it's better to show videos in order the students knew and watch the steps and all about the lesson being discussed especially music and arts. Now, my topic was Arts in quarter 2. And since it's a digital art, I need to find digital art videos to let the students see what is digital arts means.

I am hoping that all of this sacrifices I made will be worth it. How? I will be happy if my students learn from me in teaching them. It will be an overwhelming feeling if I know that thwy learn from me because I made timw and effort for this job. Even if I'm having a hard time, I am doing my best to let them learn from me. If only I handled mathematics, I won't be this problematic hahaha . But anyway, it's okay as long as there's a sahod coming. Ayyy, wala pa pala coz I don't have yet an atm card. I will be going to Tacloban again to pass the requirements and my I.d authentication i. Order for me to have a salary claim. And my salary will be enough to pay utangs , aguyyy.

Anyway, that's all for today. Good morning all. Gotta go to sleep for a minute because my partner was already angry, wala ba daw ako balak matulog. Haruyyy