@Yelenab 5 December 2021 edited

A jump in the past

I've been taking a long break from writing, perhaps it would be more accurate to say that I haven't had any inspiration in quite some time. I need to be inspired or in the right mood to line up ideas, nothing good comes to me if I'm not in the right frame of mind, I'd rather not even try. I've written a lot in the past, many thoughts have become poems, free verses that I'm very fond of and that I often reread in my personal blog. Just today I came across these verses and I got excited thinking about the feelings that inspired me ***I could still have you*** ***firstborn son of a sweet bitter illusion*** ***one of those that sneaks through the sleepy thoughts at night, in the drowsiness*** ***I could still touch you*** ***along the edges of a found dream*** ***abandoned in a dark corner of the heart*** ***when I clean it from the dust of an almost faded past*** ***I could still look at you*** ***following the memory*** ***going over the echo of words*** ***the same ones that perhaps I believed you whispered to me when you held me in your arms*** ***And pretended I was yours*** ***I could still*** ***wait*** ***in an insane, crazy awareness*** ***Of a fatuous 'I love you' that never surfaced on those poisoned rose lips*** ***That tender kiss I dedicated to you*** ***Is left somewhere*** ***between your skin and a lack*** ***between you and me*** ***That we were never really*** ***so close*** ***to hold each other.*** ***[2018©Yelena b.]***

I don't feel that way anymore, I'm healed but it makes me tender to think back to the me of that time. I wonder where I ended up.... Thanks for reading My amazing Sponsors ♥️