Have you ever experienced being betrayed by someone whom you thought would never stab you on the back? Excluded by a group that once gave you the sense of belongingness? Thought that you and them will always do things together because you had promised each other to face every situation hand-in-hand?
Who doesn't? Right? Ever since the day that we first open our eyes, we are already longing for someone to care and love for us. Do babies cry for attention? Of course!
It is because we feel so vulnerable and unsafe that we think we won't survive the world without others. It is true actually because as what the famous line always tell "No man is an island" so we really need each other to get through life. However, in this world wherein change is inevitable, people's care and love are temporary. They come and go. Everybody does! So the key for us to feel the belongingness we are longing since then is to accept ourselves. ACCEPT YOURSELF. It is only then that you won't look for happiness from other people because you, yourself, are already happy by your own company..
And most importantly, even if people goes to the exit passage, God doesn't.. He will always be with us. Which made me remember the gospel I was able to listen when I was at church, it said that there are three hierarchies of blessings in our lives. Materialistic things, The people around us..... and most importantly, God. It is fulfilling to receive the first two blessing but there's no greater feeling than having God. It is like you were able to won the first price. It is magical and only then you'll feel really blessed. So, even though we'll lost the 2nd and 3rd price, we won't be sad because we have the 1st price.
Point is, it is okay to not be included sometimes... It is okay to feel like people are pushing you out because there is someone up above who's willing to embrace you. Keep up the fight! Don't lose hope because He is in control. ❤️💞