@Winx1988 30 January 2022 edited more from that month

"Do not enter into a relationship" "Weng,please write this topic on the board up to page 3",Ma'am Judith told me.And Mr.E (he is the man who is courting me when I was in highschool) came to me and said,"I can write your notes so that you will not left behind after you write on the board".And I said,"No,you had a very bad hand writing!Okay,Mr.E said,and he walk away. Deep inside of me,I feel guilty of hurting him by rejecting his suggestion to help me.But I just did it with purpose,just to make him hate me,so that he will stop courting me.My father told me,"Don't enter into any relationship as long as your still studying ".Day by day,that words always remain in my mind,and my heart,because I don't want to disappoint my Papa for sending me to school. From that moment,Mr.E didn't even tried to come with me as what he did before,I was hurt inside me,because there's a part of me that seems to like him,but I fight it just obey my father's words. As the days goes by,I have observed that his treatment with me become cold and he doesn't talk to me anymore.So,I think my words at him in front of our class really affects him and makes him feel embarrassed. This happens during I'm in 4th year highschool,until our graduation,we didn't talk to each other and there's no reconciliation that happened . After many years,I was already married and I have heard that he was still single and have a great job already because he finished his course,while me had already two kids. I've tried to search him on Facebook,and I saw his photos ,but I'm afraid to chat him,because I am guilty.I felt bad when I can remember those days,because I know that he was too serious courting me,and he is a good man,and hardworking. That's why I'm thinking ,what if my father didn't give me command not to enter any relationship,maybe we are still okay right now.But past is past already,what's the hard part is that we doesn't have a reconciliation and it was ended so vague. I remember this experienced when I saw Yeng Constantino and Ryan Bang story on showtime.We don't have the same situation like Ryan,who just stop courting Yeng.I just felt guilty of hurting a man who doesn't do any bad thing to me. Do I deserve to feel guilty? If Mr.E,would ask me why I do that,I would tell him the reason why,it's because I'm afraid with my father to get angry. I don't have any relationship during high school days,even if my classmates was teasing me. I just want to become a good student of my family,and I'm willing to do what I need to do,just to make them happy and will not be disappointed with me at the end of the day. What I have learned with this experienced? It's never right to hurt someone even if we have a valid reason.Everything must be don't done in a proper way of conversation and closure.It can create a gap between two people just like us.We are not friend on FB until now and I feel ashamed to get in touched with him first and asked forgiveness. Is it right to give a command with our children not to engaged in a relationships while they are still studying ? As of now,that I'm already a mother, I never told my son and daughter not to enter into any relationships,I told my daughter that she has to put it in a right way,and we should know about it,not as a secret one. How about you? I never had any boyfriend until I reach 19 years old,but when I am out of my parents wings and I'm already finished my study,that's the time that I have already a boyfriend and get married right away after 6 months of a relationship. "Siguro yan ang mahirap kapag masyadong pinagbawalan ng mga magulang,pag nagmahal todo naman,na parang wala ng bukas,at ikinasal agad ako after graduation,para akong nakawala sa hawla". Anyway,when I graduated and my parents find our that I have a relationship already,they were surprised,and when I told them that I will get married,they couldn't accept it right away.We had arguments and disagreements when my man came into our house. "Naisip tuloy nila na sana hinayaan na lang nila ako noon,kasi daw nong nagkanobyo eh,nag asawa agad". But I don't blame them of being so strict with me before,but I thank them for that ,because I have found a man which is right for me. I already understand why did my parents were like that,"because they are just trying to protect me and wants me to achieve my dreams and finished my studies.They are protective with me,even when going out with friends and during that night,I never ever experience going on a night life before,I'm just a school to house each day.And it's the usual thing until I was done in schooling. There's no parents who wants to make their children fall into undesirable situation,that's why they are doing their best. Parents loved their children as always and they will never let their kids be harm by anybody.

It's hard to imposed such kind of rules to my kids but for me,I will be glad if they will be responsible people in terms with relationships.I pray that they can find the right person for them someday even though they were just too young now. How about you,would you also tell your children,do not enter into a relationship while your still studying ? Thanks for dropping by.