C.h.i.l.d.h.o.o.d

First came Susan, Then came Merit And finally came along Samantha I was only seven at the time, When my first crush strode into my life I was taken aback by those smoky, sultry looking hazel eyes She was the first girl I ever loved, Susan I could feel my desire for her in my post kindergarten heart, burn Whenever I was near her I could feel blood heaving in my artery and vein She was my own senorita but not hailing from Spain I was crushed, mother told me we were moving, I was left in vain Made new friends, particularly this one guy named Hussein And in no time my fickle mind had forgotten about Susan New school, new clothes, new town, new house, but the same me In years to come I was to meet a girl called Sammy But before Sammy came along. I feel for another In my mind she was the one, I never knew she saw me like a brother My eyes were captivated by this beautiful chocolate skinned girl I wanted to court her But I didn’t know much about courtship Only in grade five I decided I was going to take the plunge and dive I knew if I was to win her over I had to strive My mind told me I was going to thrive If I succeeded in courting Merit I knew I was deserving of an award of sorts, a Merit It felt like she had enchanted me with a love portion But before I could put my courtship plan in motion There entered into the classroom a girl, who put my plan into commotion The girl a yellow boned Ndebele beauty with luscious lips, Her birth name, Samantha We were out during an agriculture lesson, She was planting cherry blossoms All I could do was to envisage myself eating cherry from those bosoms But before I could tell her, she left abruptly in a hastily fashion I never told her the love I had for her, the passion She left for Michigan State, I don’t know where this state is If only I knew where it is, it would put my mental state at ease The ladies of my childhood First came Susan, The stunning hazel eyed one Then came Merit The gorgeous chocolate boned beauty And then there was Samantha The yellow boned Ndebele beauty with luscious lips Sue, Merry and Sammy the ladies of my childhood They say it’s a white man’s infection All I could do was envisage the imminent penetration In a vision I touch it, the feeling creates a burning sensation This infection sent me to penitentiary They tried to psychoanalyse me with ideals from tertiary Telepathically we share our love She feels the prying eyes of another I walk past her, I feel loved even though it’s only an instant Nostrils trickled by the pleasurable smell of her scent They say I am possessed, they burn demonic-chasing incense I am normal for crying out loud, they say I am nuts in my sense Hours on end I spend staring lewdly at her pictures on instagram She loves me, she accepted my request on Facebook Like a snare, she has got me on a hook A real African lady with her floral doek It’s not obsession it’s love Today is the day I shower her my passion From behind I attack like a lioness I close her mouth, my knife patched on her neck Her fear breathes life into me Tears roll of her cheeks I gyrate as I descend deep into her aperture In a state of narcosis my Missus passes out My head held high I walk out The shrinks say I suffer from erotomania When I see her I am teleported to my own Chronicles of Narnia As I wait trial I am in state of denial If I can’t be with you and then I deserve not to live A razor firmly placed on my wrists I will wait for you my love in the land beyond In my heart I know for, me you are full of fond Even as I journey to the land beyond I can still fell the bond Till will meet, goodbye my love, we will one day be one mould I am no peeping Tom my love for you is just misconstrued