You wanted to show to them that you're struggling, that it is hard for you and you can't do it, But you can't because they will be very disappointed to you, the more they believe in you, the greater their disappoinment when you fail...their expectations will push you in becoming the woman they want you to be. So I ended up faking it...showing them I can and I'm strong but deep inside I need them and I long for the words "No one's perfect, it's okay there's another opportunity, no one blames you". #RandomThoughts