12 Years in a blink !!!

Hello everyone... ufff can you believe I took an intentional break from read for 3 full days?? yes I did.. I do not want to go into details but I'm extremely down and depressed these days. I do not have any specific problem but my mental health overall is all over the place right now. I feel like I'm stuck in my life and has nowhere to escape to but only death can release me from this. I'm usually extremely positive and smiling energy but these days am getting negative emotions like anger, hate, jealousy often which I KNOW is wrong to feel.. I'm trying my best to keep myself as well headed as possible and thinking about God and my family whenever I feel sad.

But. forget about that, how are you all doing? I have noticed in past 2 days in my notifications that not only me, but so many users are not so active here aren't they? I have seen 3 or so posts yesterday alone from users asking for excuse for not being active. I sincerely hope everyone here is doing well and all your problems be dissolved soon and your lives be filled with happiness and peace..

Coming to this topic though, yesterday I and my husband finished 12 years of marriage and we stepped into our 13th. I honestly feel so weird to event think how many years I have been with this guy like It's like I married him yesterday.. when they say time flies, it's not a joke damn... I'm so grateful for having a lovely husband and daughter even though his family made me depressed and suicidal for the past 12 years, at least he often stood by me and understood what I'm going through.. at least he cooks for me, helps in laundry and teaches modules for my daughter...

it is because of him I get some time to focus on my online work like Read/Noise and other blogging and social media time... Other men in my friends often ask me how your husband allows you to be on social media, I would just say "He is a gentleman who knows his boundaries and value of my personal space unlike you freaks" hahaha.. because they always try to control their wives and when you know it is happening, that is not a happy marriage...

I honestly have one single wish for my family that we should lead a happy and peaceful life and to have strong health and strength ..and of course, make a lot of money too hehehe...

I made plans for yesterday as I'm the one who has to do that job and he just executes it.. that is how we work together.. I did not want to waste more money and thus I asked him to take us for a long drive and to have some take out food at the end of the day... we left by evening and he took us to some snack place.. there were lot of cakes there and my daughter ordered chocolate truffle for her, she loves chocolate cake.... and then he ordered some burger and fries for me as I do not prefer to eat sugar much...

The interior of the snack bar has been completely upgraded and it looked so nice.. honestly, since the pandemic started, this is the first time we ate outside.. it was scary to remove mask from the face and use hotel's spoons, but my husband assured me to stop worrying and we had a nice time.. at the end, My daughter ordered a lemon soda with salt for herself and I ordered some coffee as I was feeling neck and headache... my husband suggested I go for a coffee instead of water and hence I did because I saw them brewing coffee right in front of my eyes and it was too tempting not to say not to that South Indian filter coffee...

We later went on a long drive to a shopping area and I went into a shop but my mind kept telling me not to buy anything as I have enough.. I ended up not buying anything and it felt nice lol... but I had to buy some glue, cardboard, pens and Popsicle sticks from a book shop for my daughter's science project...and we reached home by 8 and as and when we reached, there was food on sofa.. my husband ordered spicy rice for my daughter and spicy mushroom noodles for myself... there was lot of food and hence we shared the boxes two by third proportions and that was how the day ended..

Honestly, that was a much needed time for me as I spent a good amount of time outside my house, breathing another air... I wish this pandemic ends and we can just go out of our houses like before...

How are you all guys? please take care of your mental health guys.. it is very important.. thank you sponsors, ya'll the light in my life

Yours bloggingly

@Theblackdoll