@Telltheworld 6 June 2021 more from that month

HOW I FEEL ABOUT GOD Sunday morning again as usual, I am seated right now on a chair with my bible resting on my laps and my phone on both hands as I type to let you know just this persisting thoughts that constantly hit my heart on it's nose every time it's feet stumbled this stone. I come to church every Sunday, and sometimes maybe if may be, I come in midweeks. My rituals are not that well as I do not give my offering sometimes but sometimes, tithes is not a problem because I give it in the full of 10 percent whenever in the not up to 10 times in my whole life I give. My moral understanding is upright but my moral is half upright. I really do love my self and I want to be a good man, religion and some child hood traumas shaped these behaviours of mine. I can't say if I truly believe but i do when I do. With the little much I have said, you should know I am not so close and not so far to God if he exists. If he exists, this is where I am going, I am a Christian. To speak the truth, parental fear topped the factors that contributed to my being in church this morning, and so sure I am that if not you some yous are in this same suit I put on. We go to church everyday, we are prayer warriors, we are evangelist , we are everything in the church but mind you, our feelings about God is unclear to us, it maybe somewhat comparable to the bull and bear movement of foreign exchange trading, our faith are partimes and we are willing to be with God, we want to be just for God but our doubtful mind and nature is against us. What can we do?what is the way out? Can I intact be an upright Christian? Can I overcome this doubtful nature of mine?