@Tacobells 14 April 2021 more from that month

We all have our own insecurities in life, dont deny it that's normal. Nasa atin nalang kung paano natin ihahandle. Im gonna share you these insecurity of mine. Do tou know that up to now, i still dont know what my plan is why do i want for myself. Its not that i dony have a goals or dreams its just that i dont know what i want to become. Maybe my past has a big impact on it or yung nakasanayan ko na buhay? I really dont know seems they are the same. But to tell you honestly when i was on my 4th yr college bigla nag iba plano ko. But i dont know what is it, so i convince myself na "hey shai, this is it! 1yr and then youre done! Tyagain mo na) so yah to make the story short i finished college, try to make it to the board exam yeah thanks God that my Law subject was on my side but not the Computation hahahaha. But i dont lose hope after exam i rest for half a month which is from last week of nov to mid of dec. Then i tried my luck to some companies in Merto Manila, walk-in and online by January the fortunately the same date yes! I was hired! I must say that i enjoy my whole stay on that company inabot na nga ako ng pandemic eh hahaha. So here is the main point, my insecurity i mean. I am insecure to the people who knows what they want to become. Yes at first pa easy easy lang ako cause one of my reason is i have my parent by my side who can support me anytime and any situation but then again this pandemic made me realize na that was not enough. Dapat may goals ka shai! Dapat alam mo sa sarili mo kung anong gusto mo. You graduated on that course since andaming mong work offer bakit hindi mo igrab shai!? In the middle of this pandemic i found myself asking myself na "ayaw mo na sa field mo?" I felt that ayaw ko na sa field ko but i dont know kung saan ko gusto. Basta ang gusto ko nalang for now is kahit anong work na medyo makaka-ipon ako for my future. I rejected a lots of opportunities kaya ngayon sobrang nag sisisi ako dahil hindi ko alam ang gusto ko, wala akong strong na desisyon. Unlike any other people na alam kung ano ang gusto nila sa buhay nila. Yeah i know na we all want to ve successful and rich, i also want that bit the problem is hindi ko alam ang tamang way ko to be on that place. Kaya sa mga taong alam kung ano batalaga ang gusto nila sa buhay and winowork hard nila para makapunta sila doon hanga po ako sa inyo. Sanaol nalang talaga.