@Surfries 21 September 2020 more from that month

Pain

I just want all the pain, suffering and lies to end Why must people be deceitful disrespecting lying assholes Why do people live for the soul purpose of making another's life a living hell I've never wished so much to just die or for someone else to But lately it seems like the most simplest solution yes if it's me or the monster that does I suppose there will still be some suffering But I'm also sure that suffering will be much less than what I'm currently going through Sometimes I just feel like running away and never looking back but where would I run to when I have no one I can go to or even money to get me as far away as I need to be Trust me I don't want to die a I know it is depression talking and luckily my fear of death is greater than my depression But is doesn't stop the thoughts from entering my head and telling me that maybe is would be better if I just wasn't here at all