@Stea 19 February 2022 more from that month

It's 1am. Here's what I did after my last post- When I'm sad or confused, I pick up the cleaning materials and get to work. So I cleaned every inch of the kitchen tiles. The surface is smoother than new tiles and baby skin. Almost slipped twice. Then I went to shop for a couple of things, mainly snacks- chips, beverages, chocolates to munch on and such. Let myself have a small breakdown at the supermarkets washroom. My favorite old park was on the way and so I decided to check in. I hadn't been to a park in 2 years or more. Then I hogged on some street snacks on the way home. I video called my parents as soon as I reached home because I dearly missed them:). Snacked on some salted chips with cheesy dip. I then took up cleaning and hand brushed each tile on my bathroom floor. I'm on my way to cook instant noodles now. I might pick up the broom and clean the entire house. My apartment is larger compared to most in the cities so I might just not sleep. But all in all, though my hands feel awful, I internally feel so much better than I did when I woke up. Thank you all for the lovely comments on my previous post. I was overwhelmed by some of the responses. I shall reply to them soon, and thoughtfully :).