@SoHee7 14 August 2021 edited more from that month

Speak Myself: (Still hope or lost )

*August 14, 2021 Saturday* Last day of *July 2021, 19:03pm* in the evening. My boyfriend was at work and we were chatting, I was asking for a **picture** of him but he said he was just chatting secretly because they were in briefing, then I didn't reply after I read his ladt message. It's been a few hours and days until now (I'm still waiting for his message or maybe he's waiting for me to message).

Is he angry or are we going to break up? *(I ask myself*). I opened his account and I read that he can roam with his close friends and he can do what he wants without even telling me. Maybe it's **time** for us to **let go** of each other no matter how much we love each other.

**I have a lot to stories and tell you.** Why are we like this? We were just **happy** then our relationship suddenly changed. Where am I lacking and I have also lost my job since last year 3rd week of March 2020 then we are like this and I am just at home, there is nothing to do but **thinking of you**, while you have a job that you are busy and close friends that you can be with but I can't to be with friends, I miss them too, the day I was with them even though they were tired, the fun continued..

I want to **cry**, I'm just holding back because I can endure if I **let go** of my emotions like before, I might go crazy because I'm so tired because my heart needs to understand everything that's happening to us. As long as I know myself, I love him so much, I just don't know why he's like that, even if it hurts but I've given you **a lot of chances**. I did fool around and fool around and had no last chance.

**Me**: ***I don't know if I angry with him or not?.*** ***Who will be the first to give-up me or you?.*** *I will wait a few months before I break up and whether he will message me or not,* Hopefully you realize this before you lost all that **regret** the most painful thing you can experience in a lifetime to lost is the one who **truly loves you.** "If you left me without a **REASON**, Do not come back with an Excuse".