@Shuu 23 October 2021

Who admits to himself that he's a hypocrite?

None. Or at least they are trying their best to deny or hide that. I'm not saying that I am not one either. I am also a hypocrite, but I would not really orally admit that to others. I go to church every Sunday, but never really had a solid faith. I said that I don't care what other people say or think about me, but torment myself at night when I received honest criticisms. I hate people who gossip and judge others without really knowing everything, but I also look down and judge others in my mind like they do - and hides in a lame excuse that at least I only keep it to myself. I admire people with fortunes because of their hardwork and sacrifices, but deep inside I admired and envied their fortune more than how they worked hard. I said to myself that I am fine if I had only very few friends as long as they are real, but I was never real with anyone myself. I have dreams, like having a stable job and have a peaceful living, but doing half-baked efforts in my education and self-development. I sometimes said I want to die, but never really tried living properly at the first place. I help others because I think it's a good thing, but the 'good thing' is that so people would think I'm a good person, rather than for the sake of just naturally being kind. I am a hypocrite, but I won't tell people that. How about you?