@ShielaGanda 5 April 2021 more from that month

Why I feel like I'm always wasting my everyday life. Everyday, I ask myself, why is it again that I wasted my day. Yeah right, I know the answer to it. I did not sleep early last night. So now I woke up late again. Everyday is like a routine for me. I think I'm messing up with my life. Promises are always made by me saying no I should take measures. I should sleep early, to wake up early. Do some exercises. Eat healthy. Interact more with people. Study more. At the end of the day I always break these rules I set to myself. I can't even follow one. Why in the world I grew up like this. It seems like I'm just waiting for the time to pass. Day and night, day and night. Oh come on, it's already 2021. You haven't changed at all, please, please change for the better (myself). If I count those years that I've made my life useful, I think there's nothing. I grew up to only wait for the time to pass. I feel like I'm tired. I want to renew myself. But how. I know I can but there's a big 'BUT'. You know what I'm jealous of? I'm jealous to those people who could set their time right. Who spend their day right. Who has plans and dreams in life. Who are dedicated to the things they do. Who don't break their promises to themselves. And so on. I'm feeling bitter to myself right now. There has something to be done. There's something wrong with me. There's something I should do. Now I want to set some simple rules to myself. - find time to reflect. - find a new job. - set my goals right each day. - be motivated. - seek for an advice. - no promises. (The more I promise, the more I break it.) - study more. - exercise. - be matured. I promise, it's hard for me to adjust but I will do my best. Maybe not everything will be followed, but little by little, I can. No, I won't promise, I WILL DO IT!