@SheislikeAnteros 3 August 2022

Tell me, is there a corner where you can hide when your thoughts get to you? How to escape from those bursts of ammunition that know how to accurately hit every part of your being and are not always pleasant. We ignore pleasant thoughts, but unpleasant ones follow us and leave a mark. Words fail to hurt me because subtle signs of non-acceptance show repulsion. I can't fathom that these people don't even deserve a return reaction in the form of kindness. They live of shame, while others die of shame. I have the impression that with a look they convey the negative energy and repulsion you feel towards yourself. I would have written this even if I hadn't had a very bad dream and for the first time felt great fear in my dreams because the characters in them were very clearly colored as were their words. I realize that isolation is the only solution or prayer that I asked one person for, and quite by chance I got it from another person without a claim. I'm writing this on a church holiday, in the morning after that bad dream, and I'll publish it another day, hoping that the negative chain will loosen and break somewhere. A few days passed and the answer came in the form of a dream of a "ghost" from the past. Maybe one day I will get rid of them. I don't even know if I deserve attention for what I wrote. It is a pity.