@SeverinaAugustine 17 March 2025 more from that month

An Update for MCGC

This is an update for MCGC since we haven’t been able to catch up recently due to personal things happening in my life. So, for now, I’m giving her a sneak peek of what’s to come in our next shenanigans. Lmao. It's funny that, at this age, I'm in my crush era. I've been in a relationship since I was 14, and I've been thinking about the last time I had a huge crush on someone. I know it might be embarrassing but hear me out. I haven't felt this kind of crush on anyone before — that feeling where you're happy when they notice you, but you don't have any intention of being in a relationship with them. Or maybe... but not too soon. I wrote about him last time, and to update you guys, we’re having fewer and fewer interactions, both online and in person. We don’t make eye contact; it’s just me staring like a creep. But at least he hasn’t noticed. Is that a good thing? To be honest, my heart skips a beat every time he’s the first to view my IG stories. I don’t want to be delusional or anything, but why? Why does he do that when I’m slowly detaching and losing interest? Boys, do you have some kind of tracker or indicator that tells you when a girl is losing interest, so you throw in a little attention to keep things alive? You're all annoying! But for the record, you’re going to be proud of me when you hear this: I’m slowly getting rid of Em in my system. I haven’t thought about him recently. Muting him on my IG helped a lot. I don’t watch his boring stories anymore. I’m starting to see the red flags and realizing that he’s not really that interesting. I deserve more than someone like him. I really hate myself for giving him more than he deserved. Well, karma is a mad woman. She hasn’t visited him yet, but someday she will. And he’ll never be happy, because let’s be real, why would you wish the best for someone who hurt you and caused your mental health and self-esteem to go downhill? I won’t do anything to make his life miserable because he’s perfectly capable of doing that on his own. Anyway, let’s stop talking about Em, he’s now out of the picture. I’m capturing someone else’s attention now. Lol. Sooo, yesterday, after choir practice, I was chatting with my Ates and we decided to go home together while talking, since we don't have much time to catch up. One of my Ates has a car and offered to drop us home. Then we saw a group of organists, including my crush, in front of his car. It looked like they were heading somewhere to hang out. When they saw us, they invited us to join, which was kind of awkward for me. On our way, we were debating whether or not to go since the place was a bit small for 11 people. When we arrived, we saw the other group had just gotten there too. He looked so cute in his white barong sleeve. Hihi. We lined up the tables like a buffet and sat down. I was shocked when he sat right across from me. Omg, how am I supposed to eat peacefully with him sitting in front of me? Also, my Ates were teasing me, and I was trying to stay as normal as possible, but my friends weren’t helping. It felt like I just wanted to sink into my seat and disappear. But honestly, it was a nice feeling. It’s the first time I’ve been this close to him for this long. I even saw him do this little dance that I do when I really enjoy my food. Hahaha, it's one of the things we have in common. Expecting for more? Hahaha. Someone mentioned that last week was my birthday, and he was shocked, like he had no idea. I’m posting it on my IG, so how did he not know? Hahaha. He said, 'Manlilibre s'yaaaa,' and I, being a complete dummy, replied with, 'Uh-haaa?' Then he said, 'Na-pressure s'ya. Hahaha.' Ugh! I’m so stoooopid!! After that, we didn’t talk again. Huhu. It was so awkward. I couldn’t even tell him he had a crumb of flavored chicken on the side of his lips. Dude, my intrusive thought of wiping that crumb away didn’t win. I fought the urge so hard. Congratulate me! Hahaha. Then, we finished eating and cleaned up our mess. We were the first ones to get in the car. Before we left, I turned around and waved goodbye to the other group. He gave me a big smile. I don’t know if it was for me or for the group in general, but I really hope it was for me. Huhuhahaha! So pogi po n'ya in his new specs. Haaaaay! It’s hard giving your heart when no one’s asked for it. You’re just offering it up, hoping they don’t return it with a ‘thanks, but no thanks’.