@Saranjohn 14 June 2025 more from that month

🖤 "To the Ones Who Feel Alone But Keep Going" You know what I'm really afraid of? *Connecting with people.* I don’t want to open up. I don’t want to be close to anyone. I regret it sometimes — not putting myself first. Why did I always think about others? Their feelings, their happiness, their needs... but not mine? I want to do so many things too. But I feel stuck in this *hell* I live in. I want to achieve my dream, I want peace — but I know life doesn’t hand that out easily. I’ve grown up in a situation where I couldn’t express anything. I couldn’t speak. I was scared of people. I still am. I try — but I freeze. I fail. And it hurts. I’m a teenager. I should have support, right? Emotionally. Financially. Mentally. But I don’t. I feel like I have 'everyone around me' — but 'no one with me.' It’s lonely. Still, I tell myself: **I’m strong.** I’ll handle it. And maybe one day, I’ll look back and say: > "You did it, girl. You really did it." I hope someone is out there for me. Someone like a father, a mentor, a protector Someone who shows up when I need help. Maybe I’ll meet him someday. I never imagined I’d be this lost. I’ve thought about giving up so many times. But I’m still alive. Because some part of me — the small voice inside — believes I can still make it. That I’ll live in the place I’ve always dreamed of. That I’ll be free. One day. But today? It hurts. I’m afraid. And I don’t want to feel this anymore. If this cycle keeps repeating, I don’t think I’ll survive it mentally. But for now\... I’ll keep going. And maybe — someone reading this feels the same. You’re not alone. We’re both still here. And maybe that’s enough for today. 🖤