@SanReo 13 September 2021 more from that month

September 13, 2021 I will never forget this day. This is the most heartbreaking month to me and my Family. We lost two Family members and I cant believe it. Days and years, Minutes, seconds, and hours passing by and it looks like our memories together is just happened yesterday. This is the reason why I am not active to the both platform, here and to read.cash as well. I am still at shock and I don't know what to do anymore. It is hard for me to accept but...What I can do? We know that when we grow old, We can also experience that and we can't change our future. I'm not ready yet..I was broke down beside him. I lost my balance that it is hard to stand. Déjà vu , that is what I feel a while ago. Hearing the words and the sad news from my sister makes my world crush in just a second. Right now, I am not okay. My mind is not functioning well that I don't know if this message is have a sense. But, I just want to let out my thoughts-my feelings to you. My tears can't stop falling to my checks for hours already. I want to ask God, Why? I did not even told him the words yet. He didn't give me a chance to tell him that I love him. 😭 Just like what happened 8 years ago when my bestfriend-my late great grandma died. Right now.. I don't like to go out because I know that I was still dreaming. right? Tell me. Say yes please.