@SanReo 24 September 2021 more from that month

Why are you crying? I don't know why I am crying right now maybe because of my fever? Or because of my emotions that I can't understand. I want to tell it to someone but I don't know how to start. It's been 4 months since I came back to read.cash and noise.cash and meet a lot of virtual friends but why do I feel like I'm still lonely? I'm trying to be okay, but everytime I talk to them, I feel like I don't belong to where they are. I envy those newbies because they treat them different and better than me. I don't know but that is how I feel for a months now. Everytime that I typed a message, I regreted it after I send it and dicided to delete it after because I just recieved a few response and sometimes, they will just seen it too. Do i need to distance my self now? Do I need to change my self again and choose the person who can I trust with? It's okay, I'm already get used to it. To be ignored and to be unfriend, I don't have a friends in personal anyways. 🤣 Let's just laugh. Tomorrow, I'm sure that I will regret that I post this here but for now, let me share to you how I feel.