@SanReo 16 May 2021 more from that month

Rest in heaven love. I know how much yiu suffered, you endure all of the pain. The moment when you're so weak and anytime you will lose your breath, I was in your side. I'm sorry if I can't do anything to save you. Because I'm just poor. I'm still saving money and I'm not rich. I can't take care of you. I'm sorry if I can't give anything you want like cat food and any delicious food. 😭 You always like to sleep beside me and I know that you are just giving your best because you want to show how much you like and love me and that time, you are already weak. I'm sorry if I can't do anything but to look at you smiling to be sure that you will be okay. I even don't like to show you how weak I am because I don't like you to be sad. I told to God, that please take care of you, I can't accept that I will lose you but I don't want you to hurt anymore. I also told you right? that if they will give you another chance to live in this world, You should be born to be happy. You don't deserved to be my pet because you are the best. You deserved all of the best and not like this... Honestly, I'm having a Trauma right now. I don't like to feel the pain losing someone special to me again. It's making me depressed and I feel like anytime, I want to end my life too so that I can't feel this feeling anymore. I'm a useless person. I'm trying to give all my best but I always fail. All I want is make them happy but instead of giving them the joy that they deserved, They just recieved a worst. And i hate being like that. I hate myself... I just hope all of my pets, forgive me for being like this. I did not post this because I'm using my deceased pet for money. I post this because I'm hurting right now and i don't know where to say those things. 😭 Forgive me for posting this here.