The night is still young, we can explore more what's inside in our fantasy. You can forget your inhibitions and just go with the flow of life. We can ride the broom and let the breeze of the night carry us to the wonderful dance of desire. Let's just be you and me tonight and let your freedom glitters in the rhythm of the twilight. Up and down - twirl you're body and let it sway to the beauty of madness. Lift up your chin and let me touch everything, let me raise your feet and let me see the beauty of your soul. Slurpp.
I can see it, I can see your beautiful soul. It was shining brightly with the juices of your sweat from your good deeds before. You're a living angel of this dark world of mine. Even if everyone is rejecting you, I will accept you wholeheartedly with open arms, open mouth while drooling and with open wallet. We will fly to the moon and I will never push you away. I will wrap you with the warmth of my touch, I will lick even the path you take. I will accept you! To me, you will never experience pain but only happiness. We will dance until the last drop of our strength.
BWAHAHAHAHAHA, oh gosh, I don't know what I'm thinking. I think maybe this is the effect of too much thinking on what I want to do once I decided to spread my wings and lock it to my panty. Alright, I think I'm going crazy with the kind of thoughts that's been running on my head. It's like a tornado who wants to crushed my whole beings. It's crying so much to... let it go, let it, let it go I don't care about nothing, so what! Wait, let me breath first. I published a sad article yesterday that's why I want to bawi bawi to all of you. But no matter how hard I tried to dig my brain, all I get was nothing as in.
I can't come up of what to write next, after writing 2 paragraph then my brain was in blank state again, tsk. Well yes, I already have a topic for today, but then this crazy mind of mine act up again and just keep on thinking of you that's why my concentration is affected. I can't formulate the right ideas for my topic. Nuxx formulate. Anyways, I need my medicine but I can't find him. Should I look for him? Or maybe you're all okay with crazy Ruffa? If you're all okay with that then I will not take my medicine. Oh right, I'm just blabbing nonsense here Gomenasaiiiiiii. Hope you understand!
But seriously speaking, I really want to break free with all of these negative thoughts if mine. Well this is just about my shyness and confidence. I really want to try those new things that I want to do but I can't because I'm thinking too much. And I'm thinking everyone's opinion like they are really matters. I know, I already instil on my brain that I should ignore them and just be free and do what I want to do. It's actually easy said than done, because there's still this tiny voices in my head who love to whisper about the negative effect of what I'm about to do. Yeah, there's a demon and angel who's fighting inside my brain.
They are talking relentlessly like they have a say in my life. But well, it's actually my mind, I'm just creating them because I want to weigh first the cons and prons of when I do things. It's like they are fighting for what's really best for me. My mind versus my heart, I don't know why they have to fight just to decide, can't they just come up with one decision so that it will be not too hard for me. I sounds crazy here right? Lol. But I'm sure you have this kind of dilemma too sometimes. You have to think of the consequence if you follow your heart. You have to be brave if you want to follow your mind.
Because if you follow your heart, then that's what you really desire. That's what's making you happy, and without minding the consequences. Like when you choose between someone you love but not that well off and have to work hard so that he can feed you or to someone who's filthy rich who loves you so much and so ready to put you into pedestal but you didn't feel anything for the man. You can choose your happiness or you can be practical by choosing the latter. Does it make sense to you? I don't know why I have to give this example to you. And I don't know what is going on in this article. It's messi.
It's just that, I want to break free! I want to break free! I want to break free from your lies. You're so self satisfied I don't need you. I've got to break free. God knows, God knows I want to break free. 🎶🎶🎶🎵🎵🎶🎵
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This was July 24. I hope wala na yung nga bulong-bulong na yun. 😉 ang hirap talaga kalaban ang negativity. I can relate. Yun nilalabanan mo naman kaso talagang malakas siya. Kaya kadalasan ginagawa ko ay may pray na lang kasi mas malakas Siya sa kahit ano pang mga negativities.