That night even if we are talking just fine I know that we are both thinking about what happened that night. I am so sorry because it's my fault but he just accept it like it was nothing. I'm at fault and I know hurt him with my reaction. I know that we're both stable and savings and we can afford to have our own family now but I am not ready. I don't think I will ever be ready. If we get married for sure he will expect a kids from me and that's what I can't give to him. I didn't tell him about it because I just discover it in accident. No, I am actually afraid to tell it to him because he might change or leave me and that's what I don't want to happen. But how am I gonna tell him that I can't give him what he really want?
"Nina? Can't I really get pregnant?"
"We will never gonna talk about this Sam. I told you, never! Think of Eli and yourself. And why not tell him your condition? Not that you're the only one who's suffering. He will understand it that for sure so please. Tell him!"
But how can I? Having a big family is what he wish for.
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"YES! ELI I SAID YES! CAN'T YOU HEAR ME? HELLO, earth to Eli!"
"Wait, what? Babe what kind of shit is this. I am wearing my pyjamas. You didn't even give me the chance to prepare fo this special moment. I so hate you babe. You ruined my proposal. You know that I want the best only for you."
"Ha ha ha, I'm sorry babe I'm just excited to start a family with you. And you already asked me about this a week ago so that's okay. The most important is we can be a husband and wife now, yiehhh."
"Oh My, you are so unfair babe. But well, whatever. Let's make this memorable by making a babies. Come here you little cunt, let me throw you on our bed."
And then after a minute the room was filled with cry of happiness from the two lovers who's making the most out of their time.
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We decided to get married 6 months from now. It is a long time Preparation. Eli just want it to be perfect that's why. But in the third month since his proposal. I just found out that I am a week pregnant. And this is where I started to be anxious about my condition. Eli doesn't know it yet, about my pregnancy and the complications that I might get with this pregnancy. But I don't want to let him down so I am doing this still. For me and for him. I can do this for sure!
I just told him about my pregnancy and when I saw his face when I told him the good news. I just told to myself that I did the right decision. But after that, that's where all of the problems occur. Even if Eli wants to rush the wedding we can't do it because I need a bed rest. Even Nina get mad at me, she even threatened me that she will tell Eli about my condition and how life threatening it is. I just stop her saying I will tell Ali about it. I just don't know where to start, Oh God help me.
My condition got worse and that's where Eli asked me questions. That what is wrong with me and why this pregnancy is not normal just like the others. I had no choice but to tell him. And for the first time, Eli got mad at me. As in he is raging from anger and I can't find the right words to day to calm him. I know that I am causing much stress to him now coz of my situation. But I want this to happen so, I'll continues this pregnancy. She also get mad to Nina because she didn't even told him the seriousness of my case.
And then what I heard next to his mouth really shock me.
"We will get rid of the baby! I don't want to compromise her health so we will get rid od the bahy and that's final!"
"My God, Eli can you even hear what you're saying?"
"But your life is at stake here! And I don't want that to happen. You know you are my life amd I Will never ever take it if something bad happens to you! No!"
"No Eli! It's my body and my baby so you're not gonna dictate me on what to do here. I will continue this and I will take care of my baby, watch him or her grow, bond with him, live with him, love him with all my heart, I will give him anything and and I'm gonna spoil him rotten. Don't take that away from me. I want to do that to our baby, so please. Believe me that I will never die!"
Both of them just cry while hugging each other. Still not sure of what's waitinf to them. This is just a test and they'll surely not gonna give up.
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"I'm sorry Eli, we did everything we can do but they didn't make it. I'm so sorry, but let me tell you this. Sam really fought hard. She fight so hard to live, same with your baby but the complication is just too big for us to handle. It got out of hand that even we took care of it as fast as we can - we still didn't make it. I told her that it is really risky for her but she is just too stubborn. I'm sorry for you lost Eli."
"No! You're just kidding right? She said she can make it. She made sure that she will make it, for me and for our dream of a big family. Nina tell me! Tell me it's not true! Tell me this is just a joke. Please? Please not my Sam! Nooooooo!"
"I'm so sorry."
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Krrrrrrngggg... Krrrrnggggg.
I was awaken by my alarm clock and the first thing I did is to run to the next room. I almost slip because of running too fast but my life depends on it that's why I run so fast.... And then I open the door.
And there they are, I feel like a big lump in my chest was removed that I was able to breath.
"Eli, look at Samuel look how handsome he is when he giggle. Oh I love you so munch Sammy, muah. But wait, why you look like you run a mile? And look at your sweat. What happened?"
"Nahh, just a bad dreams."
"Oh okay. "
"I love you Babe, I love you Sammy Sammy. Dada loves you hmmmuahhh."
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Yoshii, Done. I hope you enjoy it?
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Whoa, thank God it was just a bad dream, my heart was already beating too fast 😆 thank God things ended happily for them