@Ruffa 2 October 2021 more from that month

To be honest I hate going to the market before because that place is crowded here. And as you all know I hate crowded places. I hate seeing a lot of people because I feel like they are thinking bad about me and I can't help myself from thinking that. My thought is like "What if they are laughing at my outfit?" "What if they are talking about me about the way I walk (not that I walk strangely but it's just my thought.)" or like "What if there's something wrong with my face (coz sometimes they are looking at me like I'm a bacteria that accidentally landed in their area)." That kind of thought and a lot more, I don't know I just can't stop myself from having that thought. The problem is in my mind for thinking negatively. That's why I don't look what's in front of me, I don't look to people's face because I might see something in it. Argh, I really hate myself for being like that. That's why I have this wish before. I want to be someone else who can carry herself with confidence. But I drop that thought and just continue being me. I just accept myself and it actually makes me feel happy. I will continue being myself and I will love myself more - for the economy. #SelfLove #Realization101 #Kangaroo