My Oldies, My Family, My Everything

So I got bored again with my life, I mean the right term for this I think is I got lazy again and I just want to do nothing but to watch and watch and watch. Aigoo, I need to move if I want something to change.

I am bored or rather I feel soooo lazy to move my ass today and and I think I need a breath of fresh air but not literally it's just in my head. I want to do something and so I decided to browse on facebook and watch some funny videos. While browsing I stumbled upon a post about Money Heist Korea and because of that I tried to search it on facebook. A watch the trailer and I cannot wait to watch it all. Overall, it has 6 episode and they upload it in one go I think.

It is available on Netflix but ai am waiting for someone to upload it on facebook, lol. And as I am watching more about it, the stronger the desire that I am feeling of watching it that fast, lol. So, I stop muna because I dont want to be spoiled more. So I go back to browsing again. And then I saw the facebook account of my high school classmate that I accidentally saw the other day in a remittance center. So out of curiosity I just visit it and stalk her.

So I am seeing a lot of shared post, as in just like my timelines it is full of shared post. And I just continue browsing there then I saw this one particular shared video post where she even put a caption like this "Die, You 🤬" yes, she's cursing the woman on the particular video or the b!tch. After watching the clip where she said that caption I can't also help myself from cursing the woman on that video. As in I want to get inside and punch her.

It is a video of how she's harassing her own mother. Not sure if it's her mother but maybe. It is an old woman who can't do anything about the beating that woman is doing. Actually this is not the first video that I have watch coz I already watch a video similar to this. That time the subject is an old man I think. Just watching it really pains me to the core. If only I have a power to teleport and I'll beat the crap out of her (●__●)

I mean, how could they right? Anyways, Maybe the woman is thinking that this old woman is a burden that is why she's putting all of her anger to her. I mean, the old woman is so very old and can't even fight back. All she can do is to cover her face with her arms but this shit woman just continue to hurt the old woman. I will fudging kill that woman, as in that's what I felt that time. What's pain me more is when she sweep the dust on thr ground and throw it to the old woman, that sh!t ugly woman!

I think they are from different country I am not really sure because the video is so blurry and the quality is not even good. It has no sound either so I can't understand but with just their action, you can very much tell that she is hurting the old woman even before. And I am also not sure who is filming them maybe someone they knew. Whatever the case, beating and hurting the oldies is sooooo bad. I just can't stand those mapanakit!

And this is not just that but she's also throwing the walis she used on sweeping those trash and used it to hurt more the oldie. And my blood boil into anger while watching because of it. If only! If only I can get inside to the screen of my phone! The old woman can't fight back even if she want to coz shes not capable on doing it anymore. She has no strength anymore and it sadden me more ರ╭╮ರ.

And you know what I'm thinking while watching that short video clip. "I will never do that to my oldies! I wont lay a finger to them even if anyone treat them a burden or a pain in the ass or whatever. I will never treat them like that instead, I will love them more for reaching that age and for staying with me until today. Never!" But then I also thought, what if just like that woman I also did what she did to her?

What if even if I don't want to hurt her what if I still ended up doing it. What if just like that woman I treat her harshly too? You know while thinking that I want to slap myself for even thinking that. But even if it's just a what if, just thinking it is enough to bring shiver in my vein. I plan to just shower them with love and nothing more. I will never hurt them just like what that woman did. I will never I promise that.

I have a bad temper but I think I won't end up like that woman. I will never be like her. I want to be a loving daughter who will take care of her oldies until the end. I just hope I can do that. I plan to live until my 50s but I do hope that before I die I still able to make them feel that I love them. Being a mother is not so easy so we should always think of that before doing such things just like what that woman did.

Our Moms didn't even let go our hands when we are becoming toxic and having a lot of tantrums so I hope if the times come when our Mother is the doing that because of their old age, I hope we can still embrace them to make them feel more loved. I am really hoping that I can do this. I just hope my anger issue doesnt get on my way. I will love them just like what they did to me.

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June 27, 2022

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