"Here Boss, thank you for letting me work here. My resignation letter."
"I'm still not accepting that you have to leave here. You can take a vacation all you want but come back here once you're done with that so called soul searching of yours whatever that is. You're welcome here anytime so, please come back."
"Awww, after all the nagging that you've done to me boss - I didn't know that you love me that much. Where's my nagger boss anyway? Is he hiding somewhere?"
"Why.... Even if you're like that and even if I gave you a hard time in your work, the truth will still remain that you are one of the few good worker here in my company that's why I will forget that You said that to me. Go now and do whatever you want, just don't forget that you're always welcome here."
"Aww, really Boss thank you. I'll think about it if you raise my salary into 5 digits starting at 50k, heh 🥴."
"This kid really..."
"Hahahaha, bye boss until then."
And that's how I end my work for 8 years. I started as an intern in there and later on apply to that company. I love my work there to be honest, even though my boss is a bit of a nagger when he didn't like the work I've done. He's like that but I treat him as my own father. You will just never notice it but he's a kind boss. I can assure you that. He just can't help being a little uptight sometimes because there's no woman in his life right now. Oh shoot if he hear this, he'll surely flood me with paper works again oh gosh, haha. Sad coz I have to end my contract there coz I have something more important to do. "I'll surely miss this place, ahhh.."
"Alrightuuuuu, off I go. Sayonara!"
There's a place that I really really want to go and because I have money, thanks heaven I'm not a huge spender arghh. I have savings that I can use now in my escape. Maybe I'll hire a boyfriend for a month, hmmm. It's a good idea but nahh, I'd rather find a yummilicious foods than spend it to a boyfriend for rent - rawrrrr. After putting the last clothe in my bag I close it and ready myself for a fun and tiring journey. Tell you what guys, the reason why I have savings now is because I don't spend much in other things but only in my foods. Traveling? I hate that, although I have places that I really want to go, nahh it's tiring.
But now is a different story, I just want to unwind and start going to that place. It's a place that I saw online. It is so mesmerising that I didn't really forget about it even though I just accidentally saw it online. I save it, even print it I don't know I just feel like doing it. Maybe I do it because of today. Good thing I really did. It is located in a small island somewhere, so yeah it's a beach with a beautiful cottage around. When Is aw it before they are just starting so the place has no other things in it but now, it was an evolved one and I'm excited to finally get there. Oh beaches, here I come. Wish I can see a blue eyed man in there, hihi.
"Here's your keys Ma'am, and happy staying!!"
"Yayy, thank you."
Oh yes, just like what I imagine. Looky looky, what a perfect timing. The sun setting little by little and with those birds flying - aw so peaceful. "A peaceful place to die." Kidding, tehee. After putting all of my clothes in the the closet I go outside again and watch the sunset. It's really beautiful, I didn't know that I will appreciate it's beauty now. For a worker like me who's so busy in everyday's life working my ass off is what I love to do. I don't have anyone besides me but me. No family and all. Don't know where they are now but I'm still happy. But loneliness sometimes is a mode killer. We can't help it sometimes right.
Arghh, why think about loneliness and sad memories. It should be a fun time. I should start my boys hunting now. And with that, I need my two piece heh. I'm not a bold person, I am a shy type of person - a little conservative but half malandi. But no one knows that, rawrr. Oops, not bad for a first timer. Good thing I love to run and do some twerking hehe. Coz looky looky, my butt that is not made in silicon valley. Nicki Minaj will cry if she sees this, hihi. After putting the small fabric in my waste, I walk out on my cottage with the expectation of seeing a lot of boys but sadly - I see none. Tsss, this'll be another boring night Margot.
I actually want to try skinny dipping even once. And now that I saw my chance I think I can finally do it. It's 2 AM in the morning and the lively place a while ago is now gone. The lights are all off and the only lights that I have is the moon. It's beautiful, It's different from my alone time with this moon I feel alive and happy. And I feel like removing all of my clothes now. I think I'm the only one here and no other. "Alright, It's been decided! I'll go with it!" And with that I started untying the knot of my swimwear and finally remove it. I'm free, I'm free to do the things I want to do, so yes there it is.
I have a lot more to do, it didn't really occur this to me before but I'm regretting that I didn't do this sooner. I didn't know that doing things like this could be this fun. Why I only thought of this right. But well, I still have all the time so I'll push this! To happiness!!!
One of my wish before was to ride a motorcycle. But I only know how to drive a bike so I'm not sure if I can also ride that. There's no harm on trying so....
No hard in trying my ass "Mister, don't you know a super easy way so I can learn this fast? I really want to learn it now."
"Miss, you need to follow some protocol and some other things if you want to learn this fast. You also need to memorize the sign if you don't want a conflict in your driving journey. So no, there is no easy way. Now, go let's try it again."
Oh yes, after a week!! Finally! I can now go in any place just within the vicinity. Ahhh, this is the life. I knew it driving a car is boring, but driving a motorcycle is soooo lit! It's cool I love it!! "Wooooo! This is the life yeahhhh!!!"
I travel into different place using a motorcycle I enjoy it so much. I can't still stop myself from thinking sometimes but thinking too much is part of our life so we can't really avoid it. "Boss, 1 Mineral water please, thanks."
"Here, ma'am blood. In your nose."
"What, oh shoot."
When you're in the middle if enjoying yourself then suddenly reality will hit you so hard to make you remember that.....
Why to me?
Why it has to be me.
I'm happy, I'm enjoying my life so why me? Why not just the others?
Is this a punishment? But is it so cruel?
I want to live more, I want to travel all around the world but how am I gonna so that if I have a limited time now?
Why this is so unfair, really!
Sometimes even if you want to be strong, even if you push yourself to the core just to fight, you can't still avoid thinking bad things about everything for what's happening to you. Even if you want to be positive always in life, sometimes you just can't because life is just hard. And how to be happy anyway if you already know that you only have a month to live.
So live your life to the fullest while you still can so you don't have a regret later. Tara magwala!
I didn't put and ending coz I know you already have the idea if how it will goes. So I will just leave it like this and think of whatever ending you want it to have.
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December 05, 2021