It's you! It's you girl that brought me up to the light. Thanks to your light I was able to climb up. It's a long battle, I even thought I won't last. But then you didn't hesitate you reach for my hand. You reach not just my hand but also the heavy baggage I have. And slowly, you help me remove it and now I'm back. Still broken but slowly coping up. I have you at my side that's why I'm inspired to battle up. It's hard and I have to face a lot of walls, but knowing that you're here with me is enough for me to hope - that I can make it, until my pain is gone.
It is thanks to you my girl that I am freed from harm. A harm that was cause by the hatred in my heart. Keeping a lot of it? It's just hard, my heart had a hard time keeping up. I feel like that any time, it will blow up my inside. But it didn't happen because you're there in the worst time of my life. Lively cheering from you, who am I to let you down. I can face anything because I know it makes you happy seeing me fighting from falling apart. Thank You, thank you for being there. I will continue this battle, please stay beside me and continue to cheer me up.
It's you, but it's not you anymore. Gone the jolly girl that I know. I can't tell if you're lost or what, but you won't tell me I just want to help. Your smile was gone, you eyes are dead. You're looking at me like that but can you actually see me? All I can see in your eyes was the old me who was on the pit if hell before. What happened? Why I didn't notice it? We are always together but I didn't saw it? Am I that too drawn on my own being that I failed to notice it? What kind of friend is me if I can't even feel it? Hey, I'm sorry. It's not late so I will save you this time. I'll follow you into dark just like what you have done to me.
This time I'm the one who will cheer you on for you to be strong. Be braver just like what I did and hold my hand. I will follow you even if you are on the deepest hole of hell. I will lend you my strength just like when you lift me up to the dark. Please don't let my hand go, instead hold it tight. Don't be afraid coz I'm just here ready to cover myself to you when a storm strike. Know that, I am doing this because you're important to me. You're my special girl friend who stay with me while those Friend that I'm expecting to help me turn their back at me. You're the only one who stay and put the smile in my face. So, I'll surely save you.
I hate you! I promise to save you but how I can do that promise I made if you already give up. I told you to hold on! I told you I'm gonna move heaven and hell just to lift you up from that darkness. I told you I will cheer you on the side while you're fighting your own battle. Where is that strong girl that I know? Or are you just pretending to be strong? You save me but you failed to save yourself.
You let your demons consume you and now - you just save me because you can't save yourself anymore? Are you happy that you were able to save me? But how about me? How am I gonna remove this heavy feelings here in my heart if you're gone already? You're gone. How am I gonna follow you into the darkness? I can't save you anymore, I fail to save you too. Damn it hurts.
Hora horaaa, I was able to produce some topic in my brain even if it was filled of thoughts about something else hihi. Well, maybe it's because I have this strong desire to publish an article every day? Even if I really want to skip for a day. Ah ah, how about tomorrow will I be able to write some again, hmmm. But well, I'll think about it tomorrow nalang, hihi.
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September 28, 2021