Everyone here has secrets that doesn't want to be discovered and wishing to remain it a secret forever. I also have a lot of secrets, from minor one to evil one. I also have the dirtiest secrets that I'm trying so hard to hide in the nook of my brain. But when I'm about to forget it all, I can't stop myself from doing it again. It's hard to stop especially if you enjoy doing it.
Afraid that they will discovered it someday but you can't strain yourself from doing it again. Even if you tie yourself, shackle your hand and cover yourself there is is really a time that you can't fight the urges and you can't do anything but to surrender. Do you also feel this kind of thing? It's like I was hypnotized even though your mind is clear.
I want to remain it a secret so I will never share it to anyone. I will just forget it all and if possible thaw it like I never did it, completely gone!
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It's Valentines Day, a lot of couple will be very busy today. Even if they have work I'm sure they will still make time just to spend time to their special someone, relatives, love ones. I'm also sure that there is at least 1 people here who's having a hard time because he or she has two girlfriends or boyfriends. And he can't decide who to date first, lol.
Today is Valentines so let me share a story that I'm really not proud that I did it. There's no love involved and just pure kalandian. Years after I did it, and when I am reminiscing my High School days I can't stop my hand from slapping my own face because seriously, only a whore can do it.
High School, you all know that a Clan is really In that time. I don't know if that exist till now but maybe. I have a lot of Clan that time, from different places. You know that right, sending messages to everyone using Send To All features with a Signature at the end of the message lol.
I have a clan that all of the Member was from Mindoro, my province. I become close to one of them, I even had a boyfriend during thay time tho it was just in Text. We never meet because you all know, I'm afraid of my Mom and I am shy in personal. I was like a good girl outside but has a coquettishness hidden inside.
Yes yes, I am a flirt but I can't call myself a whore because there is no sexual intercourse involved. Just a pure, oh wait let's not add that to the word coz I feel like it's not right. This is all Kalandian and there is nothing pure in this. I hate myself from being like that, a simple flirt? Arghhh, I so hate myself.
So back to the topic, I become close to all of my clan mates. Some of them are just close to our barangay. A minutes away or like 20 minutes or so. But when they schedule a EB or eyeball I never attend to it, even once, skl, lol.
There is this couple in our clan, I can't remember if how long are them as a couple. I am close to both and my ex boyfriend is their friends, also they are barkada's so that's that. We all become a textmate and a friend.
They thought of me as a friend but they had no idea that there is a snake in their circle, waiting for a chance to grab a neck of one of it's member. But seriously, I didn't plan it, it's just happened. And that guy, he is isa't kalahating malandi din para makipag landian sakin.
If before we treat ourself as just a friend, I don't know how it started but we become extra sweet to each other just like of a couple? We're saying sweet nothings to each other, texting in hiding, secretly and unnoticeably.
It became our dirty little secret.
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How about you? Do you have a secret? Do you have a will to unravel it or you will bury it together with your grave?
YOU! YES! YOU!! I DARE YOU TO REVEAL EVEN ONE OF YOUR DARK SECRETS AND SHARE IT HERE WITH US. DON'T YOU WANT TO REDUCE YOUR GUILT THAT YOU ARE TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET AND BURY IN YOUR DEEP THOUGHT?
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February 14, 2021 Sunday -
Oh seems i did worse after all 😂😂😂 but that's still pretty bad tho