The Man in My Prayers

We met when wer'e High School, you're one year ahead of me. At first, i liked you but suddenly things just don't work and i fall for someone else and break your heart of juvenile. Sadly, i don't end up being with that other person too and landed with a different man when I was in my 4th year and ended being committed with this man i met. We make it to 5 yrs, full of ups and downs, highs and lows, on and off relationship. And this is how destiny work for us mysteriously, we kept connected with each other, your still connecting with me randomly, giving your advice whenever I feel blue. Whenever my life gets grey you are there sharing some pieces of advice. And I don't thought that this will brought us to the next level of our relationship. He broke up with me. I almost breakdown. I am metally and emotionally upset. I had to completely undertand what was going on. Why did he broke up when things are falling into the right place? Why did he left me? Days passed by, and i just saw you there, being next to me again, sharing the same thoughts. Reminiscing the past back when we were 14. And at that moment I saw you differently. I told my self you're an answered prayer. When i just remember the day before my ex broke up with me, I talk to God silently in the middle of the night and ask him, Why am I not happy? I'm in a relationship but, why am I not feeling in love? Why do I feel like i just have to fight, fight, fight for something that I thought will be worth it? And then, I suddenly ask him. Lord God please do ways for me. Please do take away this man in my life if he's not for me and please do lead me to the right person. I will go wherever it takes just to be in the right path. So lead me Lord. And then, the breakup happened. And then, you came so unexpectedly like after 6 yrs. We're totally sharing the same thoughts again. That time it felt so right. I felt like God is guiding me and your the answered prayer. Though now we aren't in a relationship but I know deep down inside my heart that YOU ARE THE ONE. I will keep on praying and holding on to that.