@Raj.Pishach 24 May 2021 more from that month

A Dark Night It was a hot summer night.I was depressed with my personal life.The day was not good at all.Usually when I become depressed, I try to meet my friends.As I can have good time with them and refresh my mind.After that everything becomes easy for me.But that day was really bad for me.I was too much depressed and i couldn’t know what to do.I could't meet my friends, cause i didn’t have money.Even I didn’t have the transport cost as I can reach upto them.I pass the day alone, and the night?It was so pathetic.Cause the day can be survived easily.But the night cannot be.Because in the night, silence exists everywhere.So it becomes hard to avoid pain.I could not cry.Also I could not share my pain with anyone. By the way, I do not have too much friends.I have only 3.One who is lost from life.One who stays away.Another one who is a good person by the way.Others are also good.So except these 3 I have no friends.When it's hard to share things with them (to be or not to be), I have none to share.In that time I feel alone. So that is how I passed the day.Night came.rain started at 12am.Ah! I was looking at sky.I was missing my people.I was missing my past life.I was missing my love.I was missing my tremendous life. Tonu, who is my best friend.Till now she is cause none can replace this place. Mim, another closest friend after Tonu.I had my best life with her in my university life. Anushila, another closest friend after Tonu and Mim.I had another cool time with her. Taniza apu, a sister who is the most trustable person in my life.She has taught me how to lead a life and cared about me. Prionty apu, another sister who cared about me always. I miss these people very much.I know they are beside me somehow,but something happened that made them to stay away. It was raining heavily.I was with the rain.And the saddest part?Sara, whom I love.It is one sided love.Still I don't care she loves me or not. Though I know she is already taken, but still I love her. Whatever happens, I will not stop loving her.Cause I love her 6000. Suddenly electricity was gone.I was just enjoying the rain.At a time I slept.I heard a sound of lightning.I woke up.Electricity came by the way. Then what to do?Usually I do not sleep early at night. It becomes very late (4am or 5am).I started scrolling facebook.Just this.I didn’t have any aim.Just frustrating myself.Missing my people.They donot even know what was going on.They donot even know how I was like But I love them. I miss them really. This rainy night, this dark night, this dark moment; at least know my mind how much I love them.Thus I passed a whole night through depression.