Who would love to be in agony?

No one.Definitely no one would love to be in agony.But it is somehow a part of our "normal" life.The mental suffering during the times we experienced unbearable problems.Those sleepless nights we encounter thinking how to surpass the tests of time.Sometimes it is us who place ourselves in agony.Overthinking about the possible cause and effects of situations we are facing.

What makes me say "If he can assure us not to experience agony"

I have a diabetic father,his sugar level even reached 300+ isn't that alarming? Well it is in our bloodline actually which makes me afraid of having the same illness.I've been a GDM(Gestational Diabetes Mellitus)momma twice,so I am more prone of having type 2 diabetes if I will not be cautious about my health.

My grandmother,uncle and aunty died due to diabetes.My aunty even underwent dialysis but it didn't saved her from death.My uncle refused the dialysis treatment because he knows he will still die soon,and he doesn't want his family to suffer and be left with maraming utang.My grandmother became health cautious when her diabetes became active.but hypertension became one of the complications she had,she even had emphysema due to cigarette smoking in her younger years (quite a chainsmoker in her time). Shortness of breath is what she experience most of the time that they even buy her her own oxygen tank at home.Still her cause of death is diabetes and the complications she acquired.Those are the reason for us to always remind my Tatay(father) to be careful with his food intake specially with sweets,rice and beverages.And it is quite hard to deal with him because his response will always be "mapuputulan kung mapuputulan at mamamatay kung mamamatay" (amputated if amputated,die if meant to die). If things happens just like that wherein he is the only one who will be affected with the consequences of his actions.But definitely not.If he would die as easy as that then fine,but what if?What if different complications will occur in his diabetes.What if he gets amputated?What if he will be in a long term medication?What if in his desire to lengthen his life span he would go for dialysis which will cost a lot?

If he is wise enough and if he care for us as his family he will definitely think about the situations we might face in the future due to his stubbornness.We can't even tell him the do's and dont's.He will just ignore us and do what he wants.If only he can assure us not experience agony.Because once complications start to develop,the medication process will definitely cost us the mental, physical and emotional suffering.

Ngayon pa nga lang he is quite sutil na what more when he aged.Sana ganoon lang kadali sabihin na mamamatay kung mamamatay.Honestly ngayon palang may mga pagkakataon na na hirap nya i-handle.But still he is our father no matter what happens.And it is in our nature to care for our loved ones specially to our family members.Kahit sabihin natin na wala tayong pakielam kapag nandyan na yung sitwasyon gagawin parin natin ang lahat para makatulong.Nakakainis lang talaga isipin Why is it so hard for him to do what is best for his health condition.If he would listen to us and to his doctor he will definitely live longer and the complications to his diabetes will not worsen.We can all be at ease and not worry too much.Drinking his maintenance medicine is pointless/useless because he still eat sweets,plenty of rice and he even drink alcohol almost every night.

Who will not be in agony if you have such patient isn't it?Still praying that he will soon change his mindset.And as for me.I am also praying for me not to have the same health condition.Having type 2 diabetes is quite a struggle, really.

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