When was the last time you fell in love?

What an unproductive Thursday. Again when boredom hits me I don't know what exactly I want to do. I'm on the balcony right now, looking somewhere trying to figure things out. What did I do wrong to deserve this? Am I not enough? What would be my future? A lot of questions are running through my head but I can't answer them, maybe time will. I didn't even notice that the heat touches my feet as I guess nagiging manhid na ako lol! Anyway, this Q&A is from my dear @JustMaryel

Are you scared of anything?

I guess everyone of us had a hidden fear. I'm scared when I die without leaving a valuable lesson. I'm frightened to die without putting meaning to life. I'm afraid to die without helping and I'm scared of how I will live my life to the fullest when I don't know what path I should take. I have a lot more, those fears that trap me for what I should do. I'm scared to try as I'm afraid to lose and fail. I don't know what I'm scared of almost everything. From being unloved to being useless.

What really makes you angry?

I have a mood swing and what makes me angry is lying and cheating. I hate people who lie and cheat. I hate those people who keep on hiding their dirty secrets and acting like they are sacred. Gez! I hate when I already know the truth but still deny it. I really hate a person who looks innocent but has a lot of side chicks. I just don't like the feeling of being near the cheater.

What is your biggest fear?

Losing one of my family. Nothing can compare to the pain that I might feel when it happens. I maybe don't know what to do. They are my life and I can't just lose them. I'm afraid of not seeing one of them soon. I'm afraid of waking up finding the loved one that no longer exists. I'm frightened to feel alone again. No more laughter I heard and no more drama.

Have you ever been cheated?

Yes, I am many times but still I can count on my fingers. I've been cheated because they can't see my worth. I've been hurt because they took it for granted. I've been left behind because they find another whom they think is worth it. Here I am again, trying to flashback all the painful relationships I've been into. From being the side chick without knowing that I am. I believe and trust him but I guess a broken heart is what I got. Another is when I refuse to give the most precious gem I have (Bataan). I don't care if he leaves me, I guess I deserve someone better. I've been in a nightmare but still wake up and try to forget everything. Well, I can't but that's life and my history is part of it.

Mobile Legend or Wattpad?

I play ML but I'm not really into it. Wattpad makes me happy and sad. Wattpad shows me different worlds and stories. Wattpad set my ideal man, not those rich people but those willing to risk their life just to protect their queen. Those gents who are willing to leave everything behind just to be with their loved ones. Wattpad might contain some SPG but trust me the moral lesson they give is more than anything.

What would you do if you met someone you love at the wrong time?

Right love but wrong time won't do any good. Yes, totally because time is like your enemy. Maybe I love him but what if he had another woman in life? I just can't ruin his life just because of the love that I have. I can't let that happen, I can't ruin one's family. I'm not like that and I will never be. Maybe if the right time comes then I'm sure that would be perfect.

When was the last time you fell in love?

Today, I was loved by my family. I was loved by him and surely it will last. Challenges are there but we can't let it ruin what we have now. Plan? Future? is already set, maybe changes will occur but we will assure that at the end of the day we have each other's back. "If we want to be destined, then we have to choose to be". Stay still❤️

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