Dear Mum,
I know this is my first letter to you since you were gone more than 5 years ago. I am sorry but I believe with this, you will know how we have always missed you.
Mum, do you know one thing I never wished for in life? I never wished to lose you so soon to death but do we have a choice when it happened? Of course not. I remembered when I was called from school informing me of your ailment. I waved it off because I know you will always stand on your feet again. You have always been sick and we know why. You have always struggled to feed us. You have engaged in different menial jobs just to make sure we are okay. You were a bread supplier, you were a land agent, you were a bricklayer, you went from place to place finding different kinds of Job. You became a trader. Even though you had a shop but still, you weren't satisfied because you want streams of income to yourself.
You never gave yourself rest. You sleep late at night and wake up at 4am every morning checking out already and returned again at 10pm. All these are the cause to your ailment which you get better again. But this sickness was different. You weren't getting any better.
I was called again to start rushing to your hometown because you were transferred there. That was when it dawned on me that this was something else. I got home and saw you lying down. You were signaling to me when I let you know I was around.
You managed to stay alive even on the hospital bed for more days. That was when I knew Dad really loved you even when you guys fight a lot. At least Dad never raised his hands on you. The least he could do was to leave the house when he can't take it anymore, but he will still come home that day. He never because of that slept outside. You still gave him food to eat and apologized at the end.
You made me understand what sorry means in a relationship. You made me learn from you to always submit to my man irrespective of what happened. You also made me learn to be independent.
Do you know my Aunt (Dad's Younger sister) called me while you were on oxygen at the hospital. She gave the phone to a pastor who told me to lay my hands on your tummy and was praying for you? I was crying and at the same time saying Amen.
What was the result at the end? You gave up the ghost. You made me thought prayer couldn't do anything. I saw Dad raised his two hands on his head. "It was finished", I read his mind. You were his backbone then. You supported Dad when you were alive but now, you made the responsibility heavier for him.
Your third daughter called me that day and asked how were you doing even after you gave up the ghost. I didn't want to talk as tears was flowing down my eyes. She wanted to write her first paper during her 200 level first semester but I couldn't tell her. She begged me to tell her how you were fairing but I didn't have any option than to break the news to her. I said to her "Titi, Mom is gone"
Mom, your third daughter broke down and hanged the call on me. I didn't know how she managed to write the exam that day but I believed she was strong to cope.
I watched Dad when we got home that day. He cried for the first time. He couldn't control himself. I couldn't console him but also wept. You made People came to our house to greet us with their condolence messages. I went outside to see much sandals at our door step. I went to the toilet to cry. I couldn't believe such would happen to us.
I was hungry but I couldn't eat anything even when our landlady prepared tea and bread for me. I kept thinking and imagining how life would be.
People talked about you. Giving good remarks about you. I was happy but sad on the other hand.
Mom, how I wished you were alive today to see how your five children are doing. You should come and see how we are taking care of Dad. He has no work doing but he is with his mom. I and my siblings do talk to your mom so she doesn't miss you too much.
We are planning to visit her this month by God's grace. I know you want me to send your greetings to her. I will but that will only send mama message when she sees us (her grandchildren). We would buy her many things and give her some money.
Mom, do you know what? I am doing great now. I will be a graduate soon. How I wish you could be alive so I can spend my bch on you. Dad is really enjoying from me and my siblings. We want to try our best to care for him before he joins you. I know you miss us, you miss your family especially Tosin your last born. She really misses you so much.
I was your companion whenever I come home from school. We played a lot, you understood me to the core. Even though we fight too, I still love you Mom.
You will forever be cherished in my heart. I have a lot to say to you mom. I have many gists I want to tell you but I will do that soon because I can see this letter is getting too long. But I believe you will be smiling and happy reading this letter.
We love you forever Mama Dami!!!
Sleep on forever 😥
After reading @Olasquare letter to his late parent, I was motivated to write mine which he said I should because it helps. I am relieved writing this. I still have more to write to my mom.
Thanks for reading. Do not be emotional please.
@bmjc98 God bless you for renewing your Sponsorship again. It really means a lot to me. Thank you very much. 🙏🙏
|November 14, 2021|
I feel your pain,but the deed was done so don't think too much about it but always put her in your memories,it's hard to live without a mother...