@Pattatunay 2 May 2021

What is my future is

"Start where you are.Use what you have.Do what you can" Hello again in its a new month and we have a new goals.Its a bad news because I didn't reach my 50$ goal in April but it's Okey this may I will make sure to achieve it in the help of noise,juungle and readcash. All of us has a dream and talent but for me I'm still confuse on what's my dream and talent.I am the only one like this?I think I don't have enough inspiration to make a goal or a dream. My dream is to be an artist.I really like to draw something beautiful like an artist's drawing I really love to draw but I don't usually draw.I mean I don't really know how to draw.Even in paper I can't draw anything good.But my brother can it's like he stole of the talent in drawing but he is not interested in drawing he is wasting his talenta Im really jeaulous I wish I get that talent too because until now I can't find my talent I'm not good in singing and dancing in academic and in sports .Maybe I just don't realize what's my talent is.And I know that I am a late bloomer.Di you know when I am in elementary I didn't get into top 5-10.I usually in the middle trying To be the top. When I was a child my teacher ask all of my classmates and me on "what is my future job?".That time I want to reply I want to be a designer of clothes yeah I really want to be a designer but I don't know how to draw and I don't know about fashion so I ended up saying I want to be an architect since it's my second option.I pick architect because I want to make my dream house.It will have 3 floors and a large parking lot lol. But when I grown up and know about cooking I feel like I want to be a chef but I think there is no course of culinary arts here in our town/province im not sure.I admit that I'm not good in cooking because there is a food I don't know how to cook or slice it but I know how to cook some dishes. I still want to be a designer or an architect I'm so confuse what will I get I'm deciding on getting business course.Im getting business course because all business man/women they are all succesful and I want that too. I also want to be a therapist because I want to help people who has a mental isssue.Because when i see people depressed or had a problem I want to talk to them like I want to lessen what they feel. I also want to make a photo shop since I love to take pictures.I just take picture when I'm just alone I don't know why but I feel comfortable that no one knows what I'm doing.I have some good shots in my gallery most of them are my mother's plants I am now on second year junior highschool and turning in to third year junior highschool this year.Until now I don't know what would I get in senior highschool and college.But I have many options. I feel like I just want to stick on my brother's foot step but my brother is picking a course about technology and that was my weakness.Im not good in technology software I have some knowledge but not enough. My father wants me To be a doctor but I'm afraid in blood.And I don't want to saw someone is in pain I can't hold it.And my hands is so clumsy what if I I drop the scissors while operating my patient I can't stop laughing while realizing that.And I'm always get panic when someone is in e.ergency that's why doctor is not on my option Sometimes I think I just want to invest in crypto and earn everyday and just sit in my house but that is impossible how can people have money if he/she is not working and I don't want to waste my parents money just to take me in school.I want to make them proud of me and see the results of there work. Sometimes I feel sad because what will my future like can I stand on future?can I really make it?That's a few question I'm still finding an answer. I want to know what would you like when you grown up? Comment your answer in teh comment section Anyway thankyou for the person who inspire me to write this article.