So What Now?

Before the first, I was ignorant After the last I cried and shoved it off Like it never happened Have you ever wished for truth to be lies? After all nothing hurts more than truth But wishes ain't like that I suppose. I knew but wanted to feel But that little pleasure was stolen The only option left for me was the memory But I ended up getting migraines anytime I recall The bandages are yet to be removed to see the scars So I ask are promises just words or they go beyond that? I wanted our fictious memories to be non fictious But my options are left blank and broken With no pieces left to be fixed So I guess it would have been better if I had loved you at that moment.