Where Have All My Friends Gone?
"No man is an island."
We all know what this quote means, that no one can live without any friends or without having a friend or someone beside them. We all need someone who we can depend on, who we can talk to, cry with, have fun with, etc.
In my younger days, I had so many friends, especially when I am still in school. Everyone loves me because, according to them, I am fun to be with. I am everywhere. I have a lot of girlfriends and also have male friends, which exposed me to different experiences in life.
But as I aged, I noticed that from many friends that I have, it became fewer, and now it feels like I have no friends at all.
Sorry, but I got emotional a while ago. I was alone in my room because my daughter went out to buy my medicine. And then, I heard from the next room that they had a visitor. A friend visited the patient, and they were having fun; lots of talking and well-wishers. Hey, don't get me wrong, I am not eavesdropping. I can hear them unintentionally. It was like that every day.
And I felt jealous, lol! Oh silly me, but yeah, I got jealous. I was like, "Where have all my friends gone?" Or do I still have friends left?
Oh, I guess it was me who was left to blame. I don't socialize like I used to before. I'd prefer to stay at home. I don't know why I changed. For me, it is much better to have virtual friends than to go out and socialize. I have trust issues with people around me in the place where we are residing. I don't know who the real ones are from the fake ones. I was put in a messed up situation before because I trusted someone. And since then, I've kept my distance and learned my lesson.
And if I were to talk about my childhood friends, we grew apart from each other, maybe because we all have our own lives now, and we're living in different places and minding our own business. We sometimes talk over messenger, but you know, the closeness is not there anymore. I feel like there is a huge invisible wall between us.
And so I got lonely and felt envious of my neighbor's patient. I guess I just want someone to visit me and ask how I am. I'm sorry for this article. I just want to vent. I can not say this to my husband and daughter. They might misinterpret me, and I don't want that to happen.
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Date Published: May 17, 2022
i guess you are not alone sis.. when my baby got sick and we were at the hospital, no one had actually visited our baby, not even our family members, I guess it's because of the protocols in the hospital but they never even gave a word about visiting ... it's okay, we were able to survive and I believe as long as you have your husband and daughter, eveyrthing's gonna be alright..